Not even to Moncharmont—­with whom he talked more freely than with any other man—­had Piers ever spoken of Irene.  Andre of course suspected some romantic attachment, and was in constant amaze at Piers’ fidelity.

“Ah, you English! you English!” he would exclaim.  “You are the stoics of the modern world.  I admire; yes, I admire; but, my friend, I do not wish to imitate.”

The letter cheered Otway’s breakfast; he read it instead of the newspaper, and with vastly more benefit.

Another letter had come to his private address, a note from Mrs. Hannaford.  She was regaining strength, and hoped soon to come South again.  Her brother had already taken a nice little house for her at Campden Hill, where Olga would have a sort of studio, and, she trusted, would make herself happy.  Both looked forward to seeing Piers; they sent him their very kindest remembrances.

CHAPTER XXI

The passionate temperament is necessarily sanguine.  To desire with all one’s being is the same thing as to hope.  In Piers Otway’s case, the temper which defies discouragement existed together with the intellect which ever tends to discourage, with the mind which probes appearances, makes war upon illusions.  Hence his oft varying moods, as the one or the other part of him became ascendent.  Hence his fervours of idealism, and the habit of destructive criticism which seemed inconsistent with them.  Hence his ardent ambitions, and his appearance of plodding mediocrity in practical life.

Intensely self-conscious, he suffered much from a habit of comparing, contrasting himself with other men, with men who achieved things, who made their way, who played a part in the world.  He could not read a newspaper without reflecting, sometimes bitterly, on the careers and position of men whose names were prominent in its columns.  So often, he well knew, their success came only of accident —­as one uses the word:  of favouring circumstance, which had no relation to the man’s powers and merits.  Piers had no overweening self-esteem; he judged his abilities more accurately, and more severely, than any observer would have done; yet it was plain to him that he would be more than capable, so far as endowment went, of filling the high place occupied by this or the other far-shining personage.  He frankly envied their success—­always for one and the same reason.

Nothing so goaded his imagination as a report of the marriage of some leader in the world’s game.  He dwelt on these paragraphs, filled up the details, grew faint with realisation of the man’s triumphant happiness.  At another moment, his reason ridiculed this self-torment.  He knew that in all probability such a marriage implied no sense of triumph, involved no high emotions, promised nothing but the commonest domestic satisfaction.  Portraits of brides in an illustrated paper sometimes wrought him to intolerable agitation—­the mood of his early manhood,