only buried out of sight: ’What kind of
a woman are yo’ to go on dreaming of another
man, and yo’ a wedded wife?’ She used
to shudder as if cold steel had been plunged into her
warm, living body as she remembered these words; cruel
words, harmlessly provoked. They were too much
associated with physical pains to be dwelt upon; only
their memory was always there. She paid for these
happy rambles with her baby by the depression which
awaited her on her re-entrance into the dark, confined
house that was her home; its very fulness of comfort
was an oppression. Then, when her husband saw
her pale and fatigued, he was annoyed, and sometimes
upbraided her for doing what was so unnecessary as
to load herself with her child. She knew full
well it was not that that caused her weariness.
By-and-by, when he inquired and discovered that all
these walks were taken in one direction, out towards
the sea, he grew jealous of her love for the inanimate
ocean. Was it connected in her mind with the
thought of Kinraid? Why did she so perseveringly,
in wind or cold, go out to the sea-shore; the western
side, too, where, if she went but far enough, she
would come upon the mouth of the Haytersbank gully,
the point at which she had last seen Kinraid?
Such fancies haunted Philip’s mind for hours
after she had acknowledged the direction of her walks.
But he never said a word that could distinctly tell
her he disliked her going to the sea, otherwise she
would have obeyed him in this, as in everything else;
for absolute obedience to her husband seemed to be
her rule of life at this period—obedience
to him who would so gladly have obeyed her smallest
wish had she but expressed it! She never knew
that Philip had any painful association with the particular
point on the sea-shore that she instinctively avoided,
both from a consciousness of wifely duty, and also
because the sight of it brought up so much sharp pain.
Philip used to wonder if the dream that preceded her
illness was the suggestive cause that drew her so
often to the shore. Her illness consequent upon
that dream had filled his mind, so that for many months
he himself had had no haunting vision of Kinraid to
disturb his slumbers. But now the old dream of
Kinraid’s actual presence by Philip’s
bedside began to return with fearful vividness.
Night after night it recurred; each time with some
new touch of reality, and close approach; till it
was as if the fate that overtakes all men were then,
even then, knocking at his door.
In his business Philip prospered. Men praised
him because he did well to himself. He had the
perseverance, the capability for head-work and calculation,
the steadiness and general forethought which might
have made him a great merchant if he had lived in a
large city. Without any effort of his own, almost,
too, without Coulson’s being aware of it, Philip
was now in the position of superior partner; the one
to suggest and arrange, while Coulson only carried
out the plans that emanated from Philip. The whole