part primitive natures, nobly tempered; in our time
they tend to extinction. Growing vulgarism on
the one hand, and on the other a development of the
psychological conscience, are unfavourable to any
relation between the sexes, save those which originate
in pure animalism, or in reasoning less or more generous.
Never having experienced any feeling which he could
dignify with the name of love, Godwin had no criterion
in himself whereby to test the emotions now besetting
him. In a man of his age this was an unusual
state of things, for when the ardour which will bear
analysis has at length declared itself, it is wont
to be moderated by the regretful memory of that fugacious
essence which gave to the first frenzy of youth its
irrecoverable delight. He could not say in reply
to his impulses: If that was love which overmastered
me, this must be something either more or less exalted.
What he
did say was something of this kind:
If desire and tenderness, if frequency of dreaming
rapture, if the calmest approval of the mind and the
heart’s most exquisite, most painful throbbing,
constitute love,—then assuredly I love Sidwell.
But if to love is to be possessed with madness, to
lose all taste of life when hope refuses itself, to
meditate frantic follies, to deem it inconceivable
that this woman should ever lose her dominion over
me, or another reign in her stead,—then
my passion falls short of the true testrum, and I
am only dallying with fancies which might spring up
as often as I encountered a charming girl.
All things considered, to encourage this amorous preoccupation
was probably the height of unwisdom. The lover
is ready at deluding himself, but Peak never lost
sight of the extreme unlikelihood that he should ever
become Martin Warricombe’s son-in-law, of the
thousand respects which forbade his hoping that Sidwell
would ever lay her hand in his. That deep-rooted
sense of class which had so much influence on his
speculative and practical life asserted itself, with
rigid consistency, even against his own aspirations;
he attributed to the Warricombes more prejudice on
this subject than really existed in them. He,
it was true, belonged to no class whatever, acknowledged
no subordination save that of the hierarchy of intelligence;
but this could not obscure the fact that his brother
sold seeds across a counter, that his sister had married
a haberdasher, that his uncle (notoriously) was somewhere
or other supplying the public with cheap repasts.
Girls of Sidwell’s delicacy do not misally themselves,
for they take into account the fact that such misalliance
is fraught with elements of unhappiness, affecting
husband as much as wife. No need to dwell upon
the scruples suggested by his moral attitude; he would
never be called upon to combat them with reference
to Sidwell’s future.
What, then, was he about? For what advantage
was he playing the hypocrite? Would he, after
all, be satisfied with some such wife as the average
curate may hope to marry?