about quite a number of literary masterpieces, and
she ingenuously gave utterance to her meek and joyful
views of life, the privileges she enjoyed, and the
inspiration which she derived from the ethical views
of Robert Browning. Howard found himself wondering
why it was all so dreadfully uninteresting and devoid
of charm; he asked himself whether, if the little
spinster had been personally more attractive, her
optimistic chirpings would have seemed to have more
significance. Miss Merry had a perfectly definite
view of life, and she made life into a distinct success;
she was a happy woman, sustained by an abundance of
meek enthusiasm. She accepted everything that
happened to her, whether good or evil, with the same
eager interest. Suffering, according to Miss Merry,
had an educative quality, and life was haunted for
her by echoes of excellent literature, accurately
remembered. But Howard had a feeling that one
must not swallow life quite so uncritically, that
there ought somehow to be more discrimination; and
Miss Merry’s eager adoration of everything and
everybody reduced him to a flatness which he found
it difficult to conceal. He could not think what
was the matter with her views. She revelled in
what she called problems, and the more incomplete
that anything appeared, the more certain was Miss
Merry of ultimate perfection. There did not seem
any room for humanity, with its varying moods, in her
outlook; and yet Howard had the grace to be ashamed
of his own sullen dreariness, which certainly did
not appear to lend any dignity to life. But he
had not the heart to spoil the little lady’s
pleasure, and engaged in small talk upon moderately
abstract topics with courteous industry. “Of
course,” said his companion confidingly, “all
that I do is on a very small scale, but I think that
the quality of it is what matters—the quality
of one’s ideal, I mean.” Howard murmuringly
assented. “I have sometimes even wished,”
she went on, “that I had some real trouble of
my own—that seems foolish to you, no doubt,
because my life is such an easy one—but
I do feel that my happiness rather cuts me off from
other people— and I don’t want to
be cut off from other people; I desire to know how
and why they suffer.”
“Ah,” said Howard, “while you feel
that, it is all right; but the worst of real suffering
is, I believe, that it is apt to be entirely dreary—it
is not at all romantic, as it seems from the outside;
indeed it is the loss of all that sense of excitement
which makes suffering what it is. But really I
have no right to speak either, for I have had a very
happy life too.”
Miss Merry heard him moist-eyed and intent. “Yes,
I am sure that is true!” she said. “I
suppose we all have just as much as we can use—
just as much as it is good for us to have.”
They found that the others had arrived, and were unpacking
the luncheon. Maud greeted Howard with a shy
expectancy; but the sight of her, slender and fresh
in her rough walking-dress, renewed his strange pangs.
What did he want of her, he asked himself; what was
this mysterious and unmanning sense, that made him
conscious of every movement and every word of the
girl? Why could he not meet her in a cheerful,
friendly, simple way, and make the most of her enchanting
company?