and calculate the number of gulls and gannets we see;
but I am not so old as Sir T., and that occupation
could not absorb me. I begin to understand Lady
Charlotte and her liking for Mr. Powys better.
He is ready to play or be serious, as you please; but
in either case ’Merthyr is never a buffoon nor
a parson’—Lady C. remarked this morning;
and that describes him, if it were not for the detestable
fling at the clergy, which she never misses.
It seems in her blood to think that all priests are
hypocrites. What a little boat to be in on a stormy
sea, Bella! She appears to have no concern about
it. Whether she adores Wilfrid or not I do not
pretend to guess. She snubs him—a thing
he would bear from nobody but her. I do believe
he feels flattered by it. He is chiefly attentive
to Miss Ford, whom I like and do not like, and like
and do not like—but do like. She is
utterly cold, and has not an affection on earth.
Sir T.—I have not a dictionary—calls
her a fair clictic, I think. (Let even Cornelia read
hard, or woe to her in their hours of privacy!—his
vocabulary grows distressingly rich the more you know
him. I am not uneducated, but he introduces me
to words that seem monsters; I must pretend to know
them intimately.) Well, whether a clictic or not—and
pray, burn this letter, lest I should not have the
word correct—she has the air of a pale
young princess above any creature I have seen in the
world. I know it has struck Wilfred also; my darling
and I are ever twins in sentiment. He converses
with Miss Ford a great deal. Lady C. is peculiarly
civil to Captain G. We scud along, and are becalmed.
’Having no will of our own, we have no knowledge
of contrary winds,’ as Mr. Powys says.—The
word is ‘eclictic,’ I find. I ventured
on it, and it was repeated; and I heard that I had
missed a syllable. Ask C. to look it out—I
mean, to tell me they mining on a little slip of paper
in your next. I would buy a pocket-dictionary
at one of the ports, but you are never alone.
“Aesthetic,” we know. Mr. Barrett
used to be of service for this sort of thing.
I admit I am inferior to Mrs. Bayruffle, who, if men
talk difficult words in her presence, holds her chin
above the conversation, and seems to shame them.
I love to learn—I love the humility of
learning. And there is something divine in the
idea of a teacher. I listen to Sir T. on Parliament
and parties, and chide myself if my interest flags.
His algebra-puzzles, or Euclid-puzzles in figures—sometimes
about sheep-boys and sheep, and hurdles or geese, oxen
or anything—are delicious: he quite
masters the conversation with them. I disagree
with Mrs. Bayruffle when she complains that they are
posts in the way of speech. There is a use in
all men; and though she is an acknowledged tactician
materially, she cannot see she has in Sir T. a quality
necessary to intellectual conversation, if she knew
how to employ it.”