Complete Project Gutenberg Works of George Meredith eBook

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Complete Project Gutenberg Works of George Meredith eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 10,116 pages of information about Complete Project Gutenberg Works of George Meredith.

Late at night he mounted to Gower’s room.  The funeral of the day’s impressions had not been skaken off.  He kicked at it and sunk under it as his talk rambled.  ‘Add five thousand,’ he commented, on the spread of Livia’s papers over the table.  ’I’ve been having an hour with her.  Two thousand more, she says.  Better multiply by two and a half for a woman’s confession.  We have to trust to her for some of the debts of honour.  See her in the morning.  No one masters her but you.  Mind, the first to be clear of must be St. Ombre.  I like the fellow; but these Frenchmen—­they don’t spare women.  Ambrose,’—­the earl’s eyelids quivered.  ’Jealousy fired that shot.  Quite groundless.  She ’s cool as a marble Venus, as you said.  Go straight from her house to Esslemont.  I don’t plead a case.  Make the best account you can of it.  Say—­you may say my eyes are opened.  I respect her.  If you think that says little, say more.  It can’t mean more.  Whatever the Countess of Fleetwood may think due to her, let her name it.  Say my view of life, way of life, everything in me, has changed.  I shall follow you.  I don’t expect to march over the ground.  She has a heap to forgive.  Her father owns or boasts, in that book of his Rose Mackrell lent me, he never forgave an injury.’

Gower helped the quotation, rubbing his hands over it, for cover of his glee at the words he had been hearing.  ’Never forgave an injury without a return blow for it.  The blow forgives.  Good for the enemy to get it.  He called his hearty old Pagan custom “an action of the lungs” with him.  And it’s not in nature for injuries to digest in us.  They poison the blood, if we try.  But then, there’s a manner of hitting back.  It is not to go an inch beyond the exact measure, Captain Kirby warns us.’

Fleetwood sighed down to a low groan.

’Lord Feltre would have an answer for you.  She’s a wife; and a wife hitting back is not a pleasant—­well, petticoats make the difference.  If she’s for amends, she shall exact them; and she may be hard to satisfy, she shall have her full revenge.  Call it by any other term you like.  I did her a wrong.  I don’t defend myself; it ’s not yet in the Law Courts.  I beg to wipe it out, rectify it—­choose your phrase—­to the very fullest.  I look for the alliance with her to . . .’

He sprang up and traversed the room:  ’We’re all guilty of mistakes at starting:  I speak of men.  Women are protected; and if they’re not, there’s the convent for them, Feltre says.  But a man has to live it on before the world; and this life, with these flies of fellows . . .  I fell into it in some way.  Absolutely like the first bird I shot as a youngster, and stood over the battered head and bloody feathers, wondering!  There was Ambrose Mallard—­the same splintered bones—­blood—­come to his end; and for a woman; that woman the lady bearing the title of half-mother to me.  God help me!  What are my sins?  She feels nothing, or about as much as the mortuary paragraph of the newspapers, for the dead man; and I have Ambrose Mallard’s look at her and St. Ombre talking together, before he left the tent to cross the fields.  Borrow, beg, or steal for money to play for her! and not a glimpse of the winning post.

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