Complete Project Gutenberg Works of George Meredith eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 10,116 pages of information about Complete Project Gutenberg Works of George Meredith.

Complete Project Gutenberg Works of George Meredith eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 10,116 pages of information about Complete Project Gutenberg Works of George Meredith.

“Some work might be found for him.”

“It will be the same with old Vernon, my dear.  If he goes, he goes for good.  It is the vital principle of my authority to insist on that.  A dead leaf might as reasonably demand to return to the tree.  Once off, off for all eternity!  I am sorry, but such was your decision, my friend.  I have, you see, Clara, elements in me—­”

“Dreadful!”

“Exert your persuasive powers with Vernon.  You can do well-nigh what you will with the old fellow.  We have Miss Dale this evening for a week or two.  Lead him to some ideas of her.—­Elements in me, I was remarking, which will no more bear to be handled carelessly than gunpowder.  At the same time, there is no reason why they should not be respected, managed with some degree of regard for me and attention to consequences.  Those who have not done so have repented.”

“You do not speak to others of the elements in you,” said Clara.

“I certainly do not:  I have but one bride,” was his handsome reply.

“Is it fair to me that you should show me the worst of you?”

“All myself, my own?”

His ingratiating droop and familiar smile rendered “All myself” so affectionately meaningful in its happy reliance upon her excess of love, that at last she understood she was expected to worship him and uphold him for whatsoever he might be, without any estimation of qualities:  as indeed love does, or young love does:  as she perhaps did once, before he chilled her senses.  That was before her “little brain” had become active and had turned her senses to revolt.

It was on the full river of love that Sir Willoughby supposed the whole floating bulk of his personality to be securely sustained; and therefore it was that, believing himself swimming at his ease, he discoursed of himself.

She went straight away from that idea with her mental exclamation:  “Why does he not paint himself in brighter colours to me!” and the question:  “Has he no ideal of generosity and chivalry?”

But the unfortunate gentleman imagined himself to be loved, on Love’s very bosom.  He fancied that everything relating to himself excited maidenly curiosity, womanly reverence, ardours to know more of him, which he was ever willing to satisfy by repeating the same things.  His notion of women was the primitive black and white:  there are good women, bad women; and he possessed a good one.  His high opinion of himself fortified the belief that Providence, as a matter of justice and fitness, must necessarily select a good one for him—­or what are we to think of Providence?  And this female, shaped by that informing hand, would naturally be in harmony with him, from the centre of his profound identity to the raying circle of his variations.  Know the centre, you know the circle, and you discover that the variations are simply characteristics, but you must travel on the rays from the circle to get to the centre.  Consequently Sir Willoughby put Miss Middleton on one or other of these converging lines from time to time.  Us, too, he drags into the deeps, but when we have harpooned a whale and are attached to the rope, down we must go; the miracle is to see us rise again.

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