Besides, as he had told his friend, it was the sincerity of the Catholic religion, not the seductiveness, that won him to a form of homage—­the bend of the head of a foreign observer at a midnight mass.  Asceticism, though it may not justify error, is a truth in itself, it is the essence extracted of the scourge, flesh vanquished; and it stands apart from controversy.  Those monks of the forested mountain heights, rambling for their herbs, know the blessedness to be found in mere breathing:  a neighbour readiness to yield the breath inspires it the more.  For when we do not dread our end, the sense of a free existence comes back to us:  we have the prized gift to infancy under the piloting of manhood.  But before we taste that happiness we must perform our penance; ’No living happiness can be for the unclean,’ as the holy father preached to his flock of the monastery dispersing at matins.

Ay, but penance? penance?  Is there not such a thing as the doing of penance out of the Church, in the manly fashion?  So to regain the right to be numbered among the captains of the world’s fighting men, incontestably the best of comrades, whether or no they led away on a cataract leap at the gates of life.  Boldly to say we did a wrong will clear our sky for a few shattering peals.

The penitential act means, youth put behind us, and a steady course ahead.  But, for the keeping of a steady course, men made of blood in the walks of the world must be steadied.  Say it plainly-mated.  There is the humiliating point of our human condition.  We must have beside us and close beside us the woman we have learned to respect; supposing ourselves lucky enough to have found her; ’that required other scale of the human balance,’ as Woodseer calls her now he has got her, wiser than Lord Feltre in reference to men and women.  We get no balance without her.  That is apparently the positive law; and by reason of men’s wretched enslavement, it is the dance to dissolution when we have not honourable union with women.  Feltre’s view of women sees the devilish or the angelical; and to most men women are knaves or ninnies.  Hence do we behold rascals or imbeciles in the offspring of most men.

He embraced the respected woman’s character, with the usual effect:—­to see with her sight; and she beheld a speckled creature of the intermittent whims and moods and spites; the universal Patron, whose ambition to be leader of his world made him handle foul brutes—­corrupt and cause their damnation, they retort, with curses, in their pangs.  She was expected to pardon the husband, who had not abstained from his revenge on her for keeping him to the pledge of his word.  And what a revenge!—­he had flung the world at her.  She is consequently to be the young bride she was on the memorable morning of the drive off these heights of Croridge down to thirty-acre meadow!  It must be a saint to forgive such offences; and she is not one, she is deliciously not one, neither a Genevieve nor a Griselda.