was the only connection of the Romfreys with the parsonry,
as Everard called them. He attributed the boy’s
feeling to the influence of his great-aunt Beauchamp,
who would, he said, infallibly have made a parson
of him. ‘I’d rather enlist for a
soldier,’ Nevil said, and he ceased to dream
of rebellion, and of his little property of a few
thousand pounds in the funds to aid him in it.
He confessed to his dear friend Rosamund Culling
that he thought the parsons happy in having time to
read history. And oh, to feel for certain which
side was the wrong side in our Civil War, so that
one should not hesitate in choosing! Such puzzles
are never, he seemed to be aware, solved in a midshipman’s
mess. He hated bloodshed, and was guilty of the
‘cotton-spinners’ babble,’ abhorred
of Everard, in alluding to it. Rosamund liked
him for his humanity; but she, too, feared he was
a slack Romfrey when she heard him speak in precocious
contempt of glory. Somewhere, somehow, he had
got hold of Manchester sarcasms concerning glory:
a weedy word of the newspapers had been sown in his
bosom perhaps. He said: ’I don’t
care to win glory; I know all about that; I ‘ve
seen an old hat in the Louvre.’ And he
would have had her to suppose that he had looked on
the campaigning head-cover of Napoleon simply as a
shocking bad, bald, brown-rubbed old tricorne rather
than as the nod of extinction to thousands, the great
orb of darkness, the still-trembling gloomy quiver—the
brain of the lightnings of battles.
Now this boy nursed no secret presumptuous belief
that he was fitted for the walks of the higher intellect;
he was not having his impudent boy’s fling at
superiority over the superior, as here and there a
subtle-minded vain juvenile will; nor was he a parrot
repeating a line from some Lancastrian pamphlet.
He really disliked war and the sword; and scorning
the prospect of an idle life, confessing that his abilities
barely adapted him for a sailor’s, he was opposed
to the career opened to him almost to the extreme
of shrinking and terror. Or that was the impression
conveyed to a not unsympathetic hearer by his forlorn
efforts to make himself understood, which were like
the tappings of the stick of a blind man mystified
by his sense of touch at wrong corners. His
bewilderment and speechlessness were a comic display,
tragic to him.
Just as his uncle Everard predicted, he came home
from his first voyage a pleasant sailor lad.
His features, more than handsome to a woman, so mobile
they were, shone of sea and spirit, the chance lights
of the sea, and the spirit breathing out of it.
As to war and bloodshed, a man’s first thought
must be his country, young Jacket remarked, and ‘Ich
dien’ was the best motto afloat. Rosamund
noticed the peculiarity of the books he selected for
his private reading. They were not boys’
books, books of adventure and the like. His
favourite author was one writing of Heroes, in (so
she esteemed it) a style resembling either early architecture