we win.—Here, my little one,’ he said
to a woman, and dropped a piece of gold into her hand,
’on condition that you go straight home.’
The woman thanked him and promised. ’As
I was observing, we are in the very tide of success.
Curious! I have a slight inclination to melancholy.
Success, quotha? Why, hundreds before us have
paced the identical way homeward at night under these
lamps between the mansions and the park. The
bare thought makes them resemble a double line of
undertakers. The tomb is down there at the end
of them—costly or not. At the age
of four, on my birthday, I was informed that my mother
lay dead in her bed. I remember to this day
my astonishment at her not moving. “Her
heart is broken,” my old nurse said. To
me she appeared intact. Her sister took possession
of me, and of her papers, and the wedding-ring—now
in the custody of Dettermain and Newson—together
with the portraits of both my parents; and she, poor
soul, to sustain me, as I verily believe—she
had a great idea of my never asking unprofitably for
anything in life—bartered the most corroborative
of the testificatory documents, which would now make
the establishment of my case a comparatively light
task. Have I never spoken to you of my boyhood?
My maternal uncle was a singing-master and master
of elocution. I am indebted to him for the cultivation
of my voice. He taught me an effective delivery
of my sentences. The English of a book of his
called The Speaker is still to my mind a model of
elegance. Remittances of money came to him from
an unknown quarter; and, with a break or two, have
come ever since up to this period. My old nurse-heaven
bless her— resumed the occupation of washing.
I have stood by her tub, Richie, blowing bubbles
and listening to her prophecies of my exalted fortune
for hours. On my honour, I doubt, I seriously
doubt, if I have ever been happier. I depend
just now—I have to avow it to you—slightly
upon stimulants . . . of a perfectly innocuous
character. Mrs. Waddy will allow me a pint of
champagne. The truth is, Richie—you
see these two or three poor pensioners of mine, honi
soit qui mal y pense—my mother has had
hard names thrown at her. The stones of these
streets cry out to me to have her vindicated.
I am not tired; but I want my wine.’
He repeated several times before he reached his housedoor, that he wanted his wine, in a manner to be almost alarming. His unwonted effort of memory, the singular pictures of him which it had flashed before me, and a sort of impatient compassion, made me forget my wrath. I saw him take his restorative at one draught. He lay down on a sofa, and his valet drew his boots off and threw a cloak over him. Lying there, he wished me gaily good-night. Mrs. Waddy told me that he had adopted this system of sleeping for the last month. ’Bless you, as many people call on him at night now as in the day,’ she said; and I was induced to suppose