But was not Rose involved in him, and part of him?  Had he not sworn never to renounce her?  What was this but a betrayal?

Go on, young man:  fight your fight.  The little imps pluck at you:  the big giant assails you:  the seductions of the soft-mouthed siren are not wanting.  Slacken the knot an instant, and they will all have play.  And the worst is, that you may be wrong, and they may be right!  For is it, can it be proper for you to stain the silvery whiteness of your skin by plunging headlong into yonder pitch-bath?  Consider the defilement!  Contemplate your hideous aspect on issuing from that black baptism!

As to the honour of your family, Mr. Evan Harrington, pray, of what sort of metal consists the honour of a tailor’s family?

One little impertinent imp ventured upon that question on his own account.  The clever beast was torn back and strangled instantaneously by his experienced elders, but not before Evan’s pride had answered him.  Exalted by Love, he could dread to abase himself and strip off his glittering garments; lowered by the world, he fell back upon his innate worth.

Yes, he was called on to prove it; he was on his way to prove it.  Surrendering his dearest and his best, casting aside his dreams, his desires, his aspirations, for this stern duty, he at least would know that he made himself doubly worthy of her who abandoned him, and the world would scorn him by reason of his absolute merit.  Coming to this point, the knot of his resolve tightened again; he hugged it with the furious zeal of a martyr.

Religion, the lack of which in him the Countess deplored, would have guided him and silenced the internal strife.  But do not despise a virtue purely Pagan.  The young who can act readily up to the Christian light are happier, doubtless:  but they are led, they are passive:  I think they do not make such capital Christians subsequently.  They are never in such danger, we know; but some in the flock are more than sheep.  The heathen ideal it is not so very easy to attain, and those who mount from it to the Christian have, in my humble thought, a firmer footing.

So Evan fought his hard fight from the top of the stairs to the bottom.  A Pagan, which means our poor unsupported flesh, is never certain of his victory.  Now you will see him kneeling to his Gods, and anon drubbing them; or he makes them fight for him, and is complacent at the issue.  Evan had ceased to pick his knot with one hand and pull it with the other:  but not finding Lady Jocelyn below, and hearing that she had retired for the night, he mounted the stairs, and the strife recommenced from the bottom to the top.  Strange to say, he was almost unaware of any struggle going on within him.  The suggestion of the foolish little imp alone was loud in the heart of his consciousness; the rest hung more in his nerves than in his brain.  He thought:  ’Well, I will speak it out to her in the morning’; and thought so sincerely, while an ominous sigh of relief at the reprieve rose from his over-burdened bosom.