before I take a step that some have not considered
more than commonly serious,” came toward the
conclusion; and the idea was toyed with till he signed
his name. “A plunge into the deep is of
little moment to one who has been stripped of all clothing.
Is he not a wretch who stands and shivers still?”
This letter, ending with a short and not imperious,
or even urgent, request for an interview, on the morrow
by the ‘fruitless tree,’ he sealed for
delivery into Cornelia’s hands some hours before
the time appointed. He then wrote a clear business
letter to his lawyer, and one of studied ambiguity
to a cousin on his mother’s side. His father’s
brother, Percival Barrett, to whom the estates had
gone, had offered him an annuity of five hundred pounds:
“though he had, as his nephew was aware, a large
family.” Sir Purcell had replied:
“Let me be the first to consider your family,”
rejecting the benevolence. He now addressed his
cousin, saying: “What would you think of
one who accepts such a gift?—of me, were
you to hear that I had bowed my head and extended
my hand? Think this, if ever you hear of it:
that I have acceded for the sake of winning the highest
prize humanity can bestow: that I certainly would
not have done it for aught less than the highest.”
After that he went to his narrow bed. His determination
was to write to his uncle, swallowing bitter pride,
and to live a pensioner, if only Cornelia came to
her tryst, “the last he would ask of her,”
as he told her. Once face to face with his beloved,
he had no doubt of his power; and this feeling which
he knew her to share, made her reluctance to meet
him more darkly suspicious.
As he lay in the little black room, he thought of
how she would look when a bride, and of the peerless
beauty towering over any shades of earthliness which
she would present. His heated fancy conjured up
every device and charm of sacredness and adoring rapture
about that white veiled shape, until her march to
the altar assumed the character of a religious procession—a
sight to awe mankind! And where, when she stood
before the minister in her saintly humility, grave
and white, and tall—where was the man whose
heart was now racing for that goal at her right hand?
He felt at the troubled heart and touched two fingers
on the rib, mock-quietingly, and smiled. Then
with great deliberation he rose, lit a candle, unlocked
a case of pocket-pistols, and loaded them: but
a second idea coming into his head, he drew the bullet
out of one, and lay down again with a luxurious speculation
on the choice any hand might possibly make of the
life-sparing or death-giving of those two weapons.
In his neat half-slumber he was twice startled by a
report of fire-arms in a church, when a crowd of veiled
women and masked men rushed to the opening, and a
woman throwing up the veil from her face knelt to a
corpse that she lifted without effort, and weeping,
laid it in a grave, where it rested and was at peace,
though multitudes hurried over it, and new stars came
and went, and the winds were strange with new tongues.
The sleeper saw the morning upon that corpse when
light struck his eyelids, and he awoke like a man
who knew no care.