to play or be serious, as you please; but in either
case ’Merthyr is never a buffoon nor a parson’—Lady
C. remarked this morning; and that describes him,
if it were not for the detestable fling at the clergy,
which she never misses. It seems in her blood
to think that all priests are hypocrites. What
a little boat to be in on a stormy sea, Bella!
She appears to have no concern about it. Whether
she adores Wilfrid or not I do not pretend to guess.
She snubs him—a thing he would bear from
nobody but her. I do believe he feels flattered
by it. He is chiefly attentive to Miss Ford,
whom I like and do not like, and like and do not like—but
do like. She is utterly cold, and has not an
affection on earth. Sir T.—I have
not a dictionary—calls her a fair clictic,
I think. (Let even Cornelia read hard, or woe to her
in their hours of privacy!—his vocabulary
grows distressingly rich the more you know him.
I am not uneducated, but he introduces me to words
that seem monsters; I must pretend to know them intimately.)
Well, whether a clictic or not—and pray,
burn this letter, lest I should not have the word
correct—she has the air of a pale young
princess above any creature I have seen in the world.
I know it has struck Wilfred also; my darling and
I are ever twins in sentiment. He converses with
Miss Ford a great deal. Lady C. is peculiarly
civil to Captain G. We scud along, and are becalmed.
’Having no will of our own, we have no knowledge
of contrary winds,’ as Mr. Powys says.—The
word is ‘eclictic,’ I find. I ventured
on it, and it was repeated; and I heard that I had
missed a syllable. Ask C. to look it out—I
mean, to tell me they mining on a little slip of paper
in your next. I would buy a pocket-dictionary
at one of the ports, but you are never alone.
“Aesthetic,” we know. Mr. Barrett
used to be of service for this sort of thing.
I admit I am inferior to Mrs. Bayruffle, who, if
men talk difficult words in her presence, holds her
chin above the conversation, and seems to shame them.
I love to learn—I love the humility of
learning. And there is something divine in the
idea of a teacher. I listen to Sir T. on Parliament
and parties, and chide myself if my interest flags.
His algebra-puzzles, or Euclid-puzzles in figures—sometimes
about sheep-boys and sheep, and hurdles or geese, oxen
or anything—are delicious: he quite
masters the conversation with them. I disagree
with Mrs. Bayruffle when she complains that they are
posts in the way of speech. There is a use in
all men; and though she is an acknowledged tactician
materially, she cannot see she has in Sir T. a quality
necessary to intellectual conversation, if she knew
how to employ it.”