his fingers on my head, and turn it round, and say
words that I pretended not to think of, though they
sent me home burning. I began to compose, and
this gentleman tore up the whole sheet in a rage, when
I showed it him; but he gave me a dinner, and left
off charging me ten shillings—only seven,
and then five—and he gave me more time than
he gave others. He also did something which
I don’t know yet whether I can thank him for.
He made me know the music of the great German.
I used to listen: I could not believe such music
could come from a German. He followed me about,
telling me I was his slave. For some time I could
not sleep. I laughed at myself for composing.
He was not an Austrian: but when he was alive
he lived in Vienna, the capital of Austria. He
ate Austrian bread, and why God gave him such a soul
of music I never can think!—Well, by-and-by
my father wanted to know what I did in the day, and
why they never had anything but potatoes for dinner.
My mother came to me, and I told her to say, I took
walks. My father said I was an idle girl, and
like my mother—who was a slave to work.
People are often unjust! So my father said
he would watch me. I had to cross the park to
give a lesson to a lady who had a husband, and she
wanted to sing to him to keep him at home in the evening.
I used to pray he might not have much ear for music.
One day a gentleman came behind me in the park.
He showed me a handkerchief, and asked me if it was
mine. I felt for my own and found it in my pocket.
He was certain I had dropped it. He looked in
the corners for the name, I told him my name—Emilia
Alessandra Belloni. He found A.F.G. there.
It was a beautiful cambric handkerchief, white and
smooth. I told him it must be a gentleman’s,
as it was so large; but he said he had picked it up
close by me, and he could not take it, and I must;
and I was obliged to keep it, though I would much rather
not. Near the end of the park he left me.”
At this point Wilfrid roused up. “You
met him the next day near the same place?” he
remarked.
She turned to him with astonishment on her features.
“How did you know that? How could you
know?”
“Sort of thing that generally happens,”
said Wilfrid.
“Yes; he was there,” Emilia slowly pursued,
controlling her inclination to question further.
“He had forgotten about the handkerchief, for
when I saw him, I fancied he might have found the
owner. We talked together. He told me he
was in the Army, and I spoke of my father’s playing
and my singing. He was so fond of music that
I promised him he should hear us both. He used
to examine my hand, and said they were sensitive fingers
for playing. I knew that. He had great
hopes of me. He said he would give me a box
at the Opera, now and then. I was mad with joy;
and so delighted to have made a friend. I had
never before made a rich friend. I sang to him
in the park. His eyes looked beautiful with pleasure.
I know I enchanted him.”