uttering no word. Taking my hand again, she entered
the chapel with me, and accompanied me through what
seemed a blaze of light and colour to the high altar,
before which was placed a prie-dieu of crimson velvet.
Motioning me to kneel, she kissed me once more through
the filmy veil that covered me from head to foot; then
turning noiselessly away she disappeared, and I heard
the heavy oaken door close behind her. Left alone,
I was able to quietly take note of everything around
me. The altar before which I knelt was ablaze
with lighted candles, and a wealth of the purest white
flowers decorated it, mingling their delicious fragrance
with the faintly perceptible odour of incense.
On all sides of the chapel, in every little niche,
and at every shrine, tapers were burning like fireflies
in a summer twilight. At the foot of the large
crucifix, which occupied a somewhat shadowy corner,
lay a wreath of magnificent crimson roses. It
would seem as though some high festival were about
to be celebrated, and I gazed around me with a beating
heart, half expecting some invisible touch to awaken
the notes of the organ and a chorus of spirit-voices
to respond with the “Gloria in excelsis Deo!”
But there was silence—absolute, beautiful,
restful silence. I strove to collect my thoughts,
and turning my eyes towards the jewelled cross that
surmounted the high altar, I clasped my hands, and
began to wonder how and for what I should pray.
Suddenly the idea struck me that surely it was selfish
to ask Heaven for anything; would it not be better
to reflect on all that had already been given to me,
and to offer up thanks? Scarcely had this thought
entered my mind when a sort of overwhelming sense
of unworthiness came over me. Had I ever been
unhappy? I wondered. If so, why? I
began to count up my blessings and compare them with
my misfortunes. Exhausted pleasure-seekers may
be surprised to hear that I proved the joys of my
life to have far exceeded my sorrows. I found
that I had sight, hearing, youth, sound limbs, an appreciation
of the beautiful in art and nature, and an intense
power of enjoyment. For all these things, impossible
of purchase by mere wealth, should I not give thanks?
For every golden ray of sunshine, for every flower
that blooms, for the harmonies of the wind and sea,
for the singing of birds and the shadows of trees,
should I not— should we not all give thanks?
For is there any human sorrow so great that the blessing
of mere daylight on the earth does not far exceed?
We mortals are spoilt and petted children—the
more gifts we have the more we crave; and when we
burn or wound ourselves by our own obstinacy or carelessness,
we are ungratefully prone to blame the Supreme Benefactor
for our own faults. We don black mourning robes
as a sort of sombre protest against Him for having
removed some special object of our choice and love,
whereas, if we believed in Him and were grateful to
Him, we should wear dazzling white in sign of rejoicing