themselves in digging a little yellow metal out of
the earth, which, when once obtained, seemed to make
the owners of it mad, for they straightway forgot
everything else. As I looked, the darkness between
me and my creation grew denser, and was only pierced
at last by those long wide shafts of radiance caused
by the innocent prayers of those who still remembered
me. And I was full of regret, for I saw my people
wandering hither and thither, restless and dissatisfied,
perplexed by their own errors, and caring nothing for
the love I bore them. Then some of them advanced
and began to question why they had been created, forgetting
completely how their lives had been originally designed
by me for happiness, love and wisdom. Then they
accused me of the existence of evil, refusing to see
that where there is light there is also darkness, and
that darkness is the rival force of the Universe,
whence cometh silently the Unnamable Oblivion of Souls.
They could not see, my self-willed children, that
they had of their own desire sought the darkness and
found it; and now, because it gloomed above them like
a pall, they refused to believe in the light where
still I was loving and striving to attract them still.
Yet it was not all darkness, and I knew that even
what there was might be repelled and cleared away if
only my people would turn towards me once more.
So I sent down upon them all possible blessings—some
they rejected angrily, some they snatched at and threw
away again, as though they were poor and trivial—none
of them were they thankful for, and none did they
desire to keep. And the darkness above them deepened,
while my anxious pity and love for them increased.
For how could I turn altogether away from them, as
long as but a few remembered me? There were some
of these weak children of mine who loved and honoured
me so well that they absorbed some of my light into
themselves, and became heroes, poets, musicians, teachers
of high and noble thought, and unselfish, devoted
martyrs for the sake of the reverence they bore me.
There were women pure and sweet, who wore their existence
as innocently as lilies, and who turned to me to seek
protection, not for themselves, but for those they
loved. There were little children, whose asking
voices were like waves of delicious music to my being,
and for whom I had a surpassing tenderness. And
yet all these were a mere handful compared to the
numbers who denied my existence, and who had wilfully
crushed out and repelled every spark of my essence
in themselves. And as I contemplated this, the
voice I had heard at the commencement of my dream
rushed towards me like a mighty wind broken through
by thunder:
“Destroy!”
A great pity and love possessed me. In deep awe, yet solemn earnestness, I pleaded with that vast commanding voice.
“Bid me not destroy!” I implored. “Command me not to disperse into nothingness these children of my fancy, some of whom yet love and trust to me for safety. Let me strive once more to bring them out of their darkness into the light—to bring them to the happiness I designed them to enjoy. They have not all forgotten me—let me give them more time for thought and recollection!”