Martie, the Unconquered eBook

Kathleen Norris
This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 456 pages of information about Martie, the Unconquered.

Martie, the Unconquered eBook

Kathleen Norris
This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 456 pages of information about Martie, the Unconquered.
I had a bitter experience—­an experience that you could have spared me, and Lydia before me, if you had cared!—­and I had a girl’s hell to bear; I had to go about among my friends ashamed!  You didn’t comfort me; you didn’t tell me that if I learned a little French, and brushed up my hair, and bought white shoes, the next young man wouldn’t throw me over for a prettier and more accomplished woman!  You were ashamed of me!  Sally, just as ignorant as Teddy is this minute, dashed into marriage; she was afraid, as I was, of being a dependent old maid!  She married a good man—­but that wasn’t your doing!  I married a bad man, a man whose selfishness and cruelty ruined all my young days, crushed the youth right out of me, and he might be living yet, and Teddy and I tied to him yet but for a chance!  I suffered dependence and hunger—­ yes, and death, too,” said Martie, crying now, “just because you didn’t give me a livelihood, just because you didn’t make me, and Sally, and Lydia, too, useful citizens!  You did Len; why didn’t you give us the same chance you gave Len?  Len had college; he not only was encouraged to choose a profession, but he was made to!  Our profession was marriage, and we weren’t even prepared for that!  I didn’t know anything when I married.  I didn’t know whether Wallace was fit to be a husband or a father!  I didn’t know how motherhood came—­all those first months were full of misgivings and doubts!  I knew I was giving him all I had, and that financially I was just where I had been—­worse off than ever, in fact, for there were the children to think of!  Why didn’t I have some work to do, so that I could have stepped into it, when bitter need came, and my children and I were almost starving?  What has Len cost you, five thousand dollars, ten thousand?  What did that statue to Grandfather Monroe cost you?  Sally and I have never cost you anything but what we ate and wore!”

Malcolm had risen, too, and they were glaring at each other.  The old man’s putty-coloured face was pale, and his eyes glittered with fury.

“You were always a headstrong, wicked girl!” he said now, in a toneless dry voice, hardly above a whisper.  “And heartless and wicked you will be to the end, I suppose!  How dare you criticise your father, and your sainted mother?  You choose your own life; you throw in your fortune with a ne’er-do-well, and then you come and reproach me!  Don’t—­don’t touch me!” he added, in a sort of furious crow, and as Martie laid a placating hand on his arm:  “Don’t come near me!”

“No, don’t you dare come near him!” sobbed Lydia.  “Poor, dear Pa, always so generous and so good to us!  I should think you’d be afraid, Martie—­I should think you’d actually be afraid to talk so wickedly!”

She essayed an embrace of her father, but Malcolm shook her loose, and crossed the hall; they heard the study door slam.  For a few minutes the sisters stared at each other, then Martie went to the side door, and called Teddy in as quiet a voice as she could command, and Lydia vanished kitchenward, with only one scared and reproachful look.

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