I had a bitter experience—an experience
that you could have spared me, and Lydia before me,
if you had cared!—and I had a girl’s
hell to bear; I had to go about among my friends
ashamed!
You didn’t comfort me; you didn’t tell
me that if I learned a little French, and brushed
up my hair, and bought white shoes, the
next
young man wouldn’t throw me over for a prettier
and more accomplished woman! You were ashamed
of me! Sally, just as ignorant as Teddy is this
minute, dashed into marriage; she was afraid, as I
was, of being a dependent old maid! She married
a good man—but that wasn’t your doing!
I married a bad man, a man whose selfishness and cruelty
ruined all my young days, crushed the youth right
out of me, and he might be living yet, and Teddy and
I tied to him yet but for a chance! I suffered
dependence and hunger— yes, and death,
too,” said Martie, crying now, “just because
you didn’t give me a livelihood, just because
you didn’t make me, and Sally, and Lydia, too,
useful citizens! You did Len; why didn’t
you give us the same chance you gave Len? Len
had college; he not only was encouraged to choose
a profession, but he was
made to! Our profession
was marriage, and we weren’t even prepared for
that! I didn’t know anything when I married.
I didn’t know whether Wallace was fit to be
a husband or a father! I didn’t know how
motherhood came—all those first months
were full of misgivings and doubts! I knew I
was giving him all I had, and that financially I was
just where I had been—worse off than ever,
in fact, for there were the children to think of!
Why didn’t I have some work to do, so that I
could have stepped into it, when bitter need came,
and my children and I were almost starving? What
has Len cost you, five thousand dollars, ten thousand?
What did that statue to Grandfather Monroe cost you?
Sally and I have never cost you anything but what we
ate and wore!”
Malcolm had risen, too, and they were glaring at each
other. The old man’s putty-coloured face
was pale, and his eyes glittered with fury.
“You were always a headstrong, wicked girl!”
he said now, in a toneless dry voice, hardly above
a whisper. “And heartless and wicked you
will be to the end, I suppose! How dare you criticise
your father, and your sainted mother? You choose
your own life; you throw in your fortune with a ne’er-do-well,
and then you come and reproach me! Don’t—don’t
touch me!” he added, in a sort of furious crow,
and as Martie laid a placating hand on his arm:
“Don’t come near me!”
“No, don’t you dare come near him!”
sobbed Lydia. “Poor, dear Pa, always so
generous and so good to us! I should think you’d
be afraid, Martie—I should think you’d
actually be afraid to talk so wickedly!”
She essayed an embrace of her father, but Malcolm
shook her loose, and crossed the hall; they heard
the study door slam. For a few minutes the sisters
stared at each other, then Martie went to the side
door, and called Teddy in as quiet a voice as she could
command, and Lydia vanished kitchenward, with only
one scared and reproachful look.