He saw his familiar, luxurious room as in a dream, and Jane, anxious-eyed, looking into the fire, and Barney Bill a little way off, clutching his hard felt hat against his body; but his eyes were fixed on the strange, many-passioned, unbalanced man who claimed to be—nay, who was—his father.
“When I first met you that night my heart went out to you,” he was saying. “It overflowed in thankfulness to God that He had delivered you out of the power of the Dog, and in His inscrutable mercy had condoned that part of my sin as a father and had set you in high places.”
With the fringe of his brain Paul recognized, for the first time, how he brought into ordinary talk the habits of speech acquired in addressing a Free Zionist congregation.
“It was only the self-restraint,” Silas continued, “taught me by bitter years of agony and a message from God that it was part of my punishment not to acknowledge you as my son—”
“And what I told you, and what Jane told you about him,” said Barney Bill. “Remember that, Silas.”
“I remember it—it was these influences that kept me silent. But we were drawn together, Paul.” He bent forward in his chair. “You liked me. In spite of all our differences of caste and creed—you liked me.”
“Yes, I was drawn to you,” said Paul, and a strange, unknown note in his voice caused Jane to glance at him swiftly. “You seemed to be a man of many sorrows and deep enthusiasms—and I admit I was in close sympathy with you.” He paused, not moving from his rigid attitude, and then went on: “What you have told me of your sufferings—and I know, with awful knowledge, the woman who was my mother—has made me sympathize with you all the more. But to express that sympathy in any way you must give me time. I said you had played hell with my life. It’s true. One of these days I may be able to explain. Not now. There’s no time. We’re caught up in the wheels of an inexorable political machine. I address my party in the constituency to-night.” It was a cold intelligence that spoke, and once more Jane flashed a half-frightened glance at him. “What I shall say to them, in view of all this, I don’t quite know. I must have half an hour to think.”