plucked it from my heart as I would have torn a thorn
from my flesh—I flung it from me with disgust
as I had flung away the unseen reptile that had fastened
on my neck in the vault. The deep warm friendship
of years I had felt for Guido Ferrari froze to its
very foundations—and in its place there
rose up, not hate, but pitiless, immeasurable contempt.
A stern disdain of myself also awoke in me, as I remembered
the unreasoning joy with which, I had hastened—as
I thought—home, full of eager anticipation
and Romeo-like ardor. An idiot leaping merrily
to his death over a mountain chasm was not more fool
than I! But the dream was over—the
delusion of my life was passed. I was strong
to avenge—I would be swift to accomplish.
So, darkly musing for an hour or more, I decided on
the course I had to pursue, and to make the decision
final I drew from my breast the crucifix that the
dead monk Cipriano had laid with me in my coffin,
and kissing it, I raised it aloft, and swore by that
sacred symbol never to relent, never to relax, never
to rest, till I had brought my vow of just vengeance
to its utmost fulfillment. The stars, calm witnesses
of my oath, eyed me earnestly from their judgment thrones
in the quiet sky—there was a brief pause
in the singing of the nightingales, as though they
too listened—the wind sighed plaintively,
and scattered a shower of jasmine blossoms like snow
at my feet. Even so, I thought, fall the last
leaves of my white days— days of pleasure,
days of sweet illusion, days of dear remembrance;
even so let them wither and perish utterly forever!
For from henceforth my life must be something other
than a mere garland of flowers—it must
be a chain of finely tempered steel, hard, cold, and
unbreakable—formed into links strong enough
to wind round and round two false lives and imprison
them so closely as to leave no means of escape.
This was what must be done—and I resolved
to do it. With a firm, quiet step I turned to
leave the avenue. I opened the little private
wicket, and passed into the dusty road. A clanging
noise caused me to look up as I went by the principal
entrance of the Villa Romani. A man servant—my
own man-servant by the by—was barring the
great gates for the night. I listened as he slid
the bolts into their places, and turned the key.
I remembered that those gates had been thoroughly
fastened before, when I came up the road from Naples—why
then had they been opened since? To let out a
visitor? Of course! I smiled grimly at my
wife’s cunning! She evidently knew what
she was about. Appearances must be kept up—the
Signor Ferrari must be decorously shown out by a servant
at the chief entrance of the house. Naturally!—all
very unsuspicious— looking and quite in
keeping with the proprieties! Guido had just
left her then? I walked steadily, without hurrying
my pace, down the hill toward the city, and on the
way I overtook him. He was strolling lazily along,
smoking as usual, and he held a spray of stephanotis