But I must not bore you with good advice. Child, why don’t you make a better use of your noble gifts? And yet you do not do anything wrong—only what other people do, but with more success. And you are very faithful to your friends. And so, God bless you.
He was much shocked by hearing that I smoked. This is what he says:
What are you doing—breaking a young man’s heart; not the first time nor the second, nor the third—I believe? Poor fellows! they have paid you the highest compliment that a gentleman can pay a lady, and are deserving of all love. Shall I give you a small piece of counsel? It is better for you and a duty to them that their disappointed passions should never be known to a single person, for as you are well aware, one confidante means every body, and the good-natured world, who are of course very jealous of you, will call you cruel and a breaker of hearts, etc. I do not consider this advice, but merely a desire to make you see things as others see them or nearly. The Symonds girls at Davos told me that you smoked!!! at which I am shocked, because it is not the manner of ladies in England. I always imagine you with a long hookah puffing, puffing, since I heard this; give it up, my dear Margaret—it will get you a bad name. Please do observe that I am always serious when I try to make fun. I hope you are enjoying life and friends and the weather: and believe me
Ever yours truly,
B. Jowett.
He asked me once if I ever told any one that he wrote to me, to which I answered:
“I should rather think so! I tell every railway porter!”
This distressed him. I told him that he was evidently ashamed of my love for him, but that I was proud of it.
Jowett (after a long silence): “Would you like to have your life written, Margaret?”
Margot: “Not much, unless it told the whole truth about me and every one and was indiscreet. If I could have a biographer like Froude or Lord Hervey, it would be divine, as no one would be bored by reading it. Who will you choose to write your life, Master?”
Jowett: “No one will be in a position to write my life, Margaret.” (For some time he called me Margaret; he thought it sounded less familiar than Margot.)
Margot: “What nonsense! How can you possibly prevent it? If you are not very good to me, I may even write it myself!”
Jowett (smiling): “If I could have been sure of that, I need not have burnt all my correspondence! But you are an idle young lady and would certainly never have concentrated on so dull a subject.”
Margot (indignantly): “Do you mean to say you have burnt all George Eliot’s letters, Matthew Arnold’s, Swinburne’s, Temple’s and Tennyson’s?”
Jowett: “I have kept one or two of George Eliot’s and Florence Nightingale’s; but great men do not write good letters.”