ominous questions; such, for instance, as—What
necessity was he under to maintain the appearance
of a cheerful domesticity? If things got just
a trifle more unbearable, why should he not make for
himself somewhere else a new home? He was, it
is true, startled at his own audacity, and only some
strangely powerful concurrence of motives—such
as he was yet to know—could in reality
have made him reckless. For the other features
of his character, those which tended to stability,
were still strong enough to oppose passions which
had not found the occasion for their full development.
He was not exactly avaricious, but pursuit of money
was in him an hereditary instinct. By mere force
of habit he stuck zealously to his business, and,
without thinking much about his wealth, disliked unusual
expenditure. His wife had taunted him with meanness,
with low money-grubbing; the effect had been to make
him all the more tenacious of habits which might have
given way before other kinds of reproof. So he
had gone on living the ordinary life, to all appearances
well contented, in reality troubled from time to time
by a reawakening of those desires which he had understood
only to have them frustrated. He groped in a
dim way after things which, by chance perceived, seemed
to have a certain bearing on his life. The discovery
in himself of an interest in architecture was an instance;
but for his visit to the Continent he might never
have been led to think of the subject. Then there
was his fondness for the moors and mountains, the lochs
and islands, of the north. On the whole, he preferred
to travel in Scotland by himself; the scenery appealed
to a poetry that was in him, if only he could have
brought it into consciousness. Already he had
planned for the present August a tour among the Hebrides,
and had made it out with his maps and guidebooks,
not without careful consideration of expense.
Why did he linger beyond the day on which he had decided
to set forth?
For several days it had been noticed at the mill that
he lacked something of his wonted attention in matters
of business. Certainly his occupation about eleven
o’clock one morning had little apparent bearing
on the concerns of his office; he was standing at the
window of his private room, which was on the first
floor of the mill, with a large field-glass at his
eyes. The glass was focussed upon the Cartwrights’
garden, in which sat Jessie with Emily Hood. They
were but a short distance away, and Dagworthy could
observe them closely; he had done so, intermittently,
for almost an hour, and this was the second morning
that he had thus amused himself. Yet, to judge
from his face, when he turned away, amusement was
hardly his state of mind; his features had a hard-set
earnestness, an expression almost savage. And
then he walked about the little room, regarding objects
absently.