She had brought with her a German book on Socialism and a little German dictionary.  At the advice of Mr. Westlake, given some months ago on the occasion of a visit to the Manor, she had applied herself diligently to this study.  But it was not only with a view to using the time that she had selected these books this morning.  In visiting a scene which would strongly revive the past, instinct—­rather than conscious purpose—­had bidden her keep firm hold upon the present.  On experiencing her disillusion a sense of trouble had almost led her to retrace her steps at once, but she overcame this, and, seating herself on the familiar bank, began to toil through hard sentences.  Such moments of self-discipline were of daily occurrence in her life; she kept watch and ward over her feelings and found in efforts of the mind a short way out of inner conflicts which she durst not suffer to pass beyond the first stage.

Near at hand there grew a silver birch Hubert Eldon, on one of the occasions when he talked here with Adela and Letty, had by chance let his eyes wander from Adela to the birch tree, and his fancy, just then active among tender images, suggested a likeness between that graceful, gleaming stem with its delicately drooping foliage and the sweet-featured girl who stood before him with her head bowed in unconscious loveliness.  As the silver birch among the trees of the wood, so was Adela among the men and women of the world.  And to one looking upon her by chance such a comparison might still have occurred.  But in face she was no longer what she had then been.  Her eyebrows, formerly so smooth and smiling, now constantly drew themselves together as if at a thought of pain or in some mental exertion.  Her cheeks had none of their maiden colour.  Her lips were closed too firmly, and sometimes trembled like those of old persons who have known much trouble.

In spite of herself her attention flagged from the hard, dull book; the spirit of the place was too strong for her, and, as in summers gone by, she was lost in vision.  But not with eyes like these had she been wont to dream on the green branches or on the sward that lay deep in sunlight.  On her raised lids sat the heaviness of mourning; she seemed to strain her sight to something very far off, something which withdrew itself from her desire, upon which her soul called and called in vain.  Her cheeks showed their thinness, her brow foretold the lines which would mark it when she grew old.  It was a sob in her throat which called her back to consciousness, a sob which her lips, well-trained warders, would not allow to pass.

She forced herself to the book again, and for some minutes plied her dictionary with feverish zeal.  Then there came over her countenance a strange gleam of joy, as if she triumphed in self-conquest.  She smiled as she continued her work, clearly making a happiness of each mastered sentence.  And, looking up with the smile still fixed, she found that her solitude was invaded.  Letty Tew had just appeared round the rock which sheltered the green haven.