“Very interesting,” murmured the vicar, who listened with an effort whilst mechanically loading his pipe.
“Isn’t it? And the ideas are well marked out; first the bio-sociological theory,—then the psychology and ethics which result from it. The book has given me a stronger impulse than anything I’ve read for years. It carries conviction with it. It clears one’s mind of all sorts of doubts and hesitations. I always kicked at the democratic idea; now I know that I was right.”
“Ah! Perhaps so. These questions are very difficult—By the bye, Dyce, I want to speak to you about a matter that has been rather troubling me of late. Let us get it over now, shall we?”
Dyce’s animated look faded under a shadow of uneasiness. He regarded the vicar steadily, with eyes which gathered apprehension.
“It’s very disagreeable,” pursued Mr. Lashmar, after puffing a pipe unlit. “I’m afraid it’ll be no less so to you than to me. I’ve postponed the necessity as long as I could. The fact is, Dyce, I’m getting pinched in my finances. Let me tell you just how matters stand.”
The son listened to an exposition of his father’s difficulties; he had his feet crossed, his head bent, and the pipe hanging from his mouth. At the first silence, he removed his pipe and said quietly:
“It’s plain that my allowance must stop. Not another word about that, father. You ought to have spoken before; I’ve been a burden to you.”
“No, no, my dear boy! I haven’t felt it till now. But, as you see, things begin to look awkward. Do you think you can manage?”
“Of course I can. Don’t trouble about me for a moment. I have my hundred and fifty a year from Mrs. Woolstan, and that’s quite enough for a bachelor. I shall pick up something else. In any case, I’ve no right to sponge on you; I’ve done it too long. If I had had the slightest suspicion—”
A sense of virtue lit up Dyce’s countenance again. Nothing was more agreeable to him than the uttering of generous sentiments. Having reassured his father, he launched into a larger optimism.
“Don’t Suppose that I have taken your money year after year without thinking about it. I couldn’t have gone on like that if I hadn’t felt sure that some day I should pay my debt. It’s natural enough that you and mother should feel a little disappointed about me, I seem to have done nothing, but, believe me, I am not idle. Money-making, I admit, has never been much in my mind; all the same, I shall have money enough one of these days, and before very long. Try to have faith in me. If it were necessary, I shouldn’t mind entering into an obligation to furnish such and such a sum yearly by when I am thirty years old. It’s a thing I never said to anyone, but I know perfectly well that a career—perhaps rather a brilliant one—is opening before me. I know it—just as one knows that one is in good health; it’s an intimate sense, needing no support of argument.”