To marry Jane, and, at the old man’s death, resign every farthing of the money to her trustees, for charitable uses?—But the old pang of conscience; the life-long wound to Jane’s tender heart.
A day of headache and incapacity, during which it was all he could do to attend to his mechanical work, and again the miserable loneliness of his attic. It rained, it rained. He had half a mind to seek refuge at some theatre, but the energy to walk so far was lacking. And whilst he stood stupidly abstracted there came a knock at his door.
‘I thought I’d just see if you’d got straight,’ said Joseph Snowdon, entering with his genial smile.
Sidney made no reply, but turned as if to stir the fire. Hands in pockets, Joseph sauntered to a seat.
‘Think you’ll be comfortable here?’ he went on. ’Well, well; of course it’s only temporary.’
‘I don’t know about that,’ returned Sidney. ’I may stay here as long as I was at the last place—eight years.’
Joseph laughed, with exceeding good-nature.
‘Oh yes; I shouldn’t wonder,’ he said, entering into the joke. ’Still’—becoming serious—’I wish you’d found a pleasanter place. With the winter coming on, you see—’
Sidney broke in with splenetic perversity.
’I don’t know that I shall pass the winter here. My arrangements are all temporary—all of them.’
After glancing at him the other crossed his legs and seemed to dispose himself for a stay of some duration.
‘You didn’t turn up the other night—in Hanover Street.’
‘No.’
’I was there. We talked about you. My father has a notion you haven’t been quite well lately. I dare say you’re worrying a little, eh?’
Sidney remained standing by the fireplace, turned so that his face was in shadow.
‘Worry? Oh, I don’t know,’ he replied, idly.
‘Well, I’m worried a good deal, Sidney, and that’s the fact.’
‘What about?’
’All sorts of things. I’ve meant to have a long talk with you; but then I don’t quite know how to begin. Well, see, it’s chiefly about Jane.’
Sidney neither moved nor spoke.