than the power to put an end to ever so little of
the want and wretchedness about her— suppose
when I die I could have the certainty that all this
money was going to be used for the good of the poor
by a woman who herself belonged to the poor?
You understand me? It would have been easy enough
to leave it among charities in the ordinary way; but
my idea went beyond that. I might have had Jane
schooled and fashioned into a lady, and still have
hoped that she would use the money well; but my idea
went beyond
that. There’s plenty
of ladies nowadays taking an interest in the miserable,
and spending their means unselfishly. What I
hoped was to raise up for the poor and the untaught
a friend out of their own midst, some one who had
gone through all that they
suffer, who was
accustomed to earn her own living by the work of her
hands as
they do, who had never thought herself
their better, who saw the world as they see it and
knew all their wants. A lady may do good, we
know that; but she can’t be the friend of the
poor as I understand it; there’s too great a
distance between her world and theirs. Can you
picture to yourself how anxiously I’ve watched
this child from the first day she came to live with
me? I’ve scarcely had a thought but about
her. I saw very soon that she had good feelings,
and I set myself to encourage them. I wanted her
to be able to read and write, but there was no need
of any more education than that; it was the heart
I cared about, not the mind. Besides, I had always
to keep saying to myself that perhaps, after all,
she wouldn’t turn out the kind of woman I wished,
and in that case she mustn’t be spoiled for
an ordinary life. Sidney, it’s this money
that has made me a weak old man when I might still
have been as strong as many at fifty; the care of
it has worn me out; I haven’t slept quietly
since it came into my hands. But the worst is
over. I shan’t be disappointed. Jane
will be the woman I’ve hoped for, and however
soon my own life comes to an end, I shall die knowing
that there’s a true man by her side to help her
to make my idea a reality.
’I’ve mentioned Mr. Percival, the lawyer.
He’s an old man like myself, and we’ve
had many a long talk together. About a year and
a half ago I told him what I’ve told you now.
Since I came back to England he’s been managing
the money for me; he’s paid me the little we
needed, and the rest of the income has been used in
charity by some people we could trust. Well,
Mr. Percival doesn’t go with me in my plans
for Jane. He thinks I’m making a mistake,
that I ought to have had the child educated to fit
her to live with rich people. It’s no use;
I can’t get him to feel what a grand thing it’ll
be for Jane to go about among her own people and help
them as nobody ever could. He said to me not
long ago, “And isn’t the girl ever to have
a husband?” It’s my hope that she will,
I told him. “And do you suppose,”
he went on, “that whoever marries her will let
her live in the way you talk of? Where are you
going to find a working man that’ll be content
never to touch this money—to work on for
his weekly wages, when he might be living at his ease?”
And I told him that it wasn’t as impossible
as he thought. What do you think, Sidney?’