of late years, feeling himself growing old, and realising
that every day brought him nearer to that verge which
all must cross in passing from Time into Eternity,
he had been sorely troubled in mind. He was wise
with the wisdom which comes of deep reading, lonely
meditation, and fervent study,—he had instructed
himself in the modern schools of thought as well as
the ancient,—and though his own soul was
steadfastly set upon the faith he followed, he was
compassionately aware of a strange and growing confusion
in the world,—a combination of the elements
of evil, which threatened, or seemed to threaten,
some terrible and imminent disaster. This sorrowful
foreboding had for a long time preyed upon him, physically
as well as mentally; always thin, he had grown thinner
and more careworn, till at the beginning of the year
his health had threatened to break down altogether.
Whereupon those who loved him, growing alarmed, summoned
a physician, who, (with that sage experience of doctors
to whom thought-trouble is an inexplicable and incurable
complication) at once pronounced change of air to
be absolutely necessary. Cardinal Bonpre must
travel, he said, and seek rest and minddistraction
in the contemplation of new and varying scenes.
With smiling and resigned patience the Cardinal obeyed
not so much the command of his medical attendant,
as the anxious desire of his people,—and
thereupon departed from his own Cathedral-town on a
tour of several months, during which time he inwardly
resolved to try and probe for himself the truth of
how the world was going,— whether on the
downward road to destruction and death, or up the
high ascents of progress and life. He went alone
and unattended,—he had arranged to meet
his niece in Paris and accompany her to her father’s
house in Rome,—and he was on his way to
Paris now. But he had purposely made a long and
round-about journey through France with the intention
of studying the religious condition of the people;
and by the time he reached Rouen, the old sickness
at his heart had rather increased than diminished.
The confusion and the trouble of the world were not
mere hearsay,—they in very truth existed.
And what seemed to the Cardinal to be the chief cause
of the general bewilderment of things, was the growing
lack of faith in God and a Hereafter. How came
this lack of faith into the Christian world?
Sorrowfully he considered the question,—and
persistently the same answer always asserted itself—that
the blame rested principally with the Church itself,
and its teachers and preachers, and not only in one,
but in all forms of Creed.
“We have erred in some vital manner,” mused the Cardinal, with a feeling of strange personal contrition, as though he were more to blame than any of his compeers—“We have failed to follow the Master’s teaching in its true perfection. We have planted in ourselves a seed of corruption, and we have permitted—nay, some of us have encouraged—its poisonous growth, till it now threatens to contaminate the whole field of labour.”