of very nearly entire apathy. Something of the
same experience was related to me by a sailor whose
first voyage was one of five years upon the Northwest
Coast. He had left home a lad, and when, after
so many years of hard and trying experience, he found
himself homeward bound, such was the excitement of
his feelings that, during the whole passage, he could
talk and think of nothing else but his arrival, and
how and when he should jump from the vessel and take
his way directly home. Yet, when the vessel was
made fast to the wharf and the crew dismissed, he
seemed suddenly to lose all feeling about the matter.
He told me that he went below and changed his dress;
took some water from the scuttle-butt and washed himself
leisurely; overhauled his chest, and put his clothes
all in order; took his pipe from its place, filled
it, and, sitting down upon his chest, smoked it slowly
for the last time. Here he looked round upon the
forecastle in which he had spent so many years, and
being alone and his shipmates scattered, began to
feel actually unhappy. Home became almost a dream;
and it was not until his brother (who had heard of
the ship’s arrival) came down into the forecastle
and told him of things at home, and who were waiting
there to see him, that he could realize where he was,
and feel interest enough to put him in motion toward
that place for which he had longed, and of which he
had dreamed, for years. There is probably so much
of excitement in prolonged expectation that the quiet
realizing of it produces a momentary stagnation of
feeling as well as of effort. It was a good deal
so with me. The activity of preparation, the
rapid progress of the ship, the first making land,
the coming up the harbor, and old scenes breaking
upon the view, produced a mental as well as bodily
activity, from which the change to a perfect stillness,
when both expectation and the necessity of labor failed,
left a calmness, almost an indifference, from which
I must be roused by some new excitement. And the
next morning, when all hands were called, and we were
busily at work, clearing the decks, and getting everything
in readiness for going up to the wharves,—
loading the guns for a salute, loosing the sails, and
manning the windlass,— mind and body seemed
to wake together.
About ten o’clock a sea-breeze sprang up, and
the pilot gave orders to get the ship under way.
All hands manned the windlass, and the long-drawn
``Yo, heave, ho!’’ which we had last heard
dying away among the desolate hills of San Diego, soon
brought the anchor to the bows; and, with a fair wind
and tide, a bright sunny morning, royals and skysails
set, ensign, streamer, signals, and pennant flying,
and with our guns firing, we came swiftly and handsomely
up to the city. Off the end of the wharf, we
rounded-to, and let go our anchor; and no sooner was
it on the bottom than the decks were filled with people:
custom-house officers; Topliff’s agent, to inquire
for news; others, inquiring for friends on board,