And she felt that it was almost ungrateful in her
to have a secret feeling that the Helstone vicarage—nay,
even the poor little house at Milton, with her anxious
father and her invalid mother, and all the small household
cares of comparative poverty, composed her idea of
home. Edith was impatient to get well, in order
to fill Margaret’s bed-room with all the soft
comforts, and pretty nick-knacks, with which her own
abounded. Mrs. Shaw and her maid found plenty
of occupation in restoring Margaret’s wardrobe
to a state of elegant variety. Captain Lennox
was easy, kind, and gentlemanly; sate with his wife
in her dressing-room an hour or two every day; played
with his little boy for another hour, and lounged
away the rest of his time at his club, when he was
not engaged out to dinner. Just before Margaret
had recovered from her necessity for quiet and repose—before
she had begun to feel her life wanting and dull—Edith
came down-stairs and resumed her usual part in the
household; and Margaret fell into the old habit of
watching, and admiring, and ministering to her cousin.
She gladly took all charge of the semblances of duties
off Edith’s hands; answered notes, reminded
her of engagements, tended her when no gaiety was
in prospect, and she was consequently rather inclined
to fancy herself ill. But all the rest of the
family were in the full business of the London season,
and Margaret was often left alone. Then her thoughts
went back to Milton, with a strange sense of the contrast
between the life there, and here. She was getting
surfeited of the eventless ease in which no struggle
or endeavour was required. She was afraid lest
she should even become sleepily deadened into forgetfulness
of anything beyond the life which was lapping her
round with luxury. There might be toilers and
moilers there in London, but she never saw them; the
very servants lived in an underground world of their
own, of which she knew neither the hopes nor the fears;
they only seemed to start into existence when some
want or whim of their master and mistress needed them.
There was a strange unsatisfied vacuum in Margaret’s
heart and mode of life; and, once when she had dimly
hinted this to Edith, the latter, wearied with dancing
the night before, languidly stroked Margaret’s
cheek as she sat by her in the old attitude,—she
on a footstool by the sofa where Edith lay.
‘Poor child!’ said Edith. ’It is a little sad for you to be left, night after night, just at this time when all the world is so gay. But we shall be having our dinner-parties soon—as soon as Henry comes back from circuit—and then there will be a little pleasant variety for you. No wonder it is moped, poor darling!’