But that could not be, for she brought good news—that
Higgins had got work at Mr. Thornton’s mill.
Her spirits were damped, at any rate, and she found
it very difficult to go on talking at all, much more
in the wild way that she had done. For some days
her spirits varied strangely; and her father was beginning
to be anxious about her, when news arrived from one
or two quarters that promised some change and variety
for her. Mr. Hale received a letter from Mr.
Bell, in which that gentleman volunteered a visit
to them; and Mr. Hale imagined that the promised society
of his old Oxford friend would give as agreeable a
turn to Margaret’s ideas as it did to his own.
Margaret tried to take an interest in what pleased
her father; but she was too languid to care about
any Mr. Bell, even though he were twenty times her
godfather. She was more roused by a letter from
Edith, full of sympathy about her aunt’s death;
full of details about herself, her husband, and child;
and at the end saying, that as the climate did not
suit, the baby, and as Mrs. Shaw was talking of returning
to England, she thought it probable that Captain Lennox
might sell out, and that they might all go and live
again in the old Harley Street house; which, however,
would seem very incomplete with-out Margaret.
Margaret yearned after that old house, and the placid
tranquillity of that old well-ordered, monotonous
life. She had found it occasionally tiresome while
it lasted; but since then she had been buffeted about,
and felt so exhausted by this recent struggle with
herself, that she thought that even stagnation would
be a rest and a refreshment. So she began to
look towards a long visit to the Lennoxes, on their
return to England, as to a point—no, not
of hope—but of leisure, in which she could
regain her power and command over herself. At
present it seemed to her as if all subjects tended
towards Mr. Thornton; as if she could not for-get him
with all her endeavours. If she went to see the
Higginses, she heard of him there; her father had
resumed their readings together, and quoted his opinions
perpetually; even Mr. Bell’s visit brought his
tenant’s name upon the tapis; for he wrote word
that he believed he must be occupied some great part
of his time with Mr. Thornton, as a new lease was
in preparation, and the terms of it must be agreed
upon.
CHAPTER XL
OUT OF TUNE
’I have no wrong, where I can claim no right,
Naught ta’en me fro, where I have nothing had,
Yet of my woe I cannot so be quite;
Namely, since that another may he glad
With that, that thus in sorrow makes me sad.’
Wyatt.
Margaret had not expected much pleasure to herself
from Mr. Bell’s visit—she had only
looked forward to it on her father’s account,
but when her godfather came, she at once fell into
the most natural position of friendship in the world.
He said she had no merit in being what she was, a
girl so entirely after his own heart; it was an hereditary
power which she had, to walk in and take possession
of his regard; while she, in reply, gave him much
credit for being so fresh and young under his Fellow’s
cap and gown.