spoke but few words; they were too much exhausted by
their terror to do more than decide upon the immediate
course of action. Mr. Hale was resolved to sit
up through the night, and all that Margaret could
do was to prevail upon him to rest on the drawing-room
sofa. Dixon stoutly and bluntly refused to go
to bed; and, as for Margaret, it was simply impossible
that she should leave her mother, let all the doctors
in the world speak of ‘husbanding resources,’
and ‘one watcher only being required.’
So, Dixon sat, and stared, and winked, and drooped,
and picked herself up again with a jerk, and finally
gave up the battle, and fairly snored. Margaret
had taken off her gown and tossed it aside with a
sort of impatient disgust, and put on her dressing-gown.
She felt as if she never could sleep again; as if
her whole senses were acutely vital, and all endued
with double keenness, for the purposes of watching.
Every sight and sound—nay, even every thought,
touched some nerve to the very quick. For more
than two hours, she heard her father’s restless
movements in the next room. He came perpetually
to the door of her mother’s chamber, pausing
there to listen, till she, not hearing his close unseen
presence, went and opened it to tell him how all went
on, in reply to the questions his baked lips could
hardly form. At last he, too, fell asleep, and
all the house was still. Margaret sate behind
the curtain thinking. Far away in time, far away
in space, seemed all the interests of past days.
Not more than thirty-six hours ago, she cared for Bessy
Higgins and her father, and her heart was wrung for
Boucher; now, that was all like a dreaming memory
of some former life;—everything that had
passed out of doors seemed dissevered from her mother,
and therefore unreal. Even Harley Street appeared
more distinct; there she remembered, as if it were
yesterday, how she had pleased herself with tracing
out her mother’s features in her Aunt Shaw’s
face,—and how letters had come, making her
dwell on the thoughts of home with all the longing
of love. Helstone, itself, was in the dim past.
The dull gray days of the preceding winter and spring,
so uneventless and monotonous, seemed more associated
with what she cared for now above all price. She
would fain have caught at the skirts of that departing
time, and prayed it to return, and give her back what
she had too little valued while it was yet in her
possession. What a vain show Life seemed!
How unsubstantial, and flickering, and flitting!
It was as if from some aerial belfry, high up above
the stir and jar of the earth, there was a bell continually
tolling, ’All are shadows!—all are
passing!—all is past!’ And when the
morning dawned, cool and gray, like many a happier
morning before—when Margaret looked one
by one at the sleepers, it seemed as if the terrible
night were unreal as a dream; it, too, was a shadow.
It, too, was past.