latent suspicion in Jemima’s jealous mind that
Ruth had purposely done aught—looked a
look—uttered a word—modulated
a tone—for the sake of attracting.
As Jemima recalled all the passages of their intercourse,
she slowly confessed to herself how pure and simple
had been all Ruth’s ways in relation to Mr. Farquhar.
It was not merely that there had been no coquetting,
but there had been simple unconsciousness on Ruth’s
part, for so long a time after Jemima bad discovered
Mr. Farquhar’s inclination for her; and, when
at length she had slowly awakened to some perception
of the state of his feelings, there had been a modest,
shrinking dignity of manner, not startled, or emotional,
or even timid, but pure, grave, and quiet; and this
conduct of Ruth’s Jemima instinctively acknowledged
to be of necessity transparent and sincere. Now,
and here, there was no hypocrisy; but some time, somewhere,
on the part of somebody, what hypocrisy, what lies
must have been acted, if not absolutely spoken, before
Ruth could have been received by them all as the sweet,
gentle, girlish widow, which she remembered they had
all believed Mrs. Denbigh to be when first she came
among them! Could Mr. and Miss Benson know?
Could they be a party to the deceit? Not sufficiently
acquainted with the world to understand how strong
had been the temptation to play the part they did,
if they wished to give Ruth a chance, Jemima could
not believe them guilty of such deceit as the knowledge
of Mrs. Denbigh’s previous conduct would imply;
and yet how it darkened the latter into a treacherous
hypocrite, with a black secret shut up in her soul
for years—living in apparent confidence,
and daily household familiarity with the Bensons for
years, yet never telling the remorse that ought to
be corroding her heart! Who was true? Who
was not? Who was good and pure? Who was
not? The very foundations of Jemima’s belief
in her mind were shaken.
Could it be false? Could there be two Ruth Hiltons?
She went over every morsel of evidence. It could
not be. She knew that Mrs. Denbigh’s former
name had been Hilton. She had heard her speak
casually, but charily, of having lived in Fordham.
She knew she had been in Wales but a short time before
she made her appearance in Eccleston. There was
no doubt of the identity. Into the middle of
Jemima’s pain and horror at the afternoon’s
discovery, there came a sense of the power which the
knowledge of this secret gave her over Ruth; but this
was no relief, only an aggravation of the regret with
which Jemima looked back on her state of ignorance.
It was no wonder that when she arrived at home, she
was so oppressed with headache that she had to go
to bed directly.
“Quiet, mother! quiet, dear, dear mother”
(for she clung to the known and tried goodness of
her mother more than ever now), “that is all
I want.” And she was left to the stillness
of her darkened room, the blinds idly flapping to
and fro in the soft evening breeze, and letting in
the rustling sound of the branches which waved close
to her window, and the thrush’s gurgling warble,
and the distant hum of the busy town.