on earth for clapping ourselves down on our knees
for set prayers? When I was a girl, and wretched
enough about Master Thurstan, and the crook on his
back which came of the fall I gave him, I took to
praying and sighing, and giving up the world; and
I thought it were wicked to care for the flesh, so
I made heavy puddings, and was careless about dinner
and the rooms, and thought I was doing my duty, though
I did call myself a miserable sinner. But one
night, the old missus (Master Thurstan’s mother)
came in, and sat down by me, as I was a-scolding myself,
without thinking of what I was saying; and, says she,
’Sally! what are you blaming yourself about,
and groaning over? We hear you in the parlour
every night, and it makes my heart ache.’
‘Oh, ma’am,’ says I, ’I’m
a miserable sinner, and I’m travailing in the
new birth.’ ’Was that the reason,’
says she, ‘why the pudding was so heavy to-day?’
’Oh, ma’am, ma’am,’ said I,
’if you would not think of the things of the
flesh, but trouble yourself about your immortal soul.’
And I sat a-shaking my head to think about her soul.
‘But,’ says she, in her sweet dropping
voice, ’I do try to think of my soul every hour
of the day, if by that you mean trying to do the will
of God, but we’ll talk now about the pudding;
Master Thurstan could not eat it, and I know you’ll
be sorry for that.’ Well! I was sorry,
but I didn’t choose to say so, as she seemed
to expect me; so says I, ’It’s a pity
to see children brought up to care for things of the
flesh;’ and then I could have bitten my tongue
out, for the missus looked so grave, and I thought
of my darling little lad pining for want of his food.
At last, says she, ’Sally, do you think God
has put us into the world just to be selfish, and
do nothing but see after our own souls? or to help
one another with heart and hand, as Christ did to all
who wanted help?’ I was silent, for, you see,
she puzzled me. So she went on, ’What is
that beautiful answer in your Church catechism, Sally?’
I were pleased to hear a Dissenter, as I did not think
would have done it, speak so knowledgeably about the
catechism, and she went on: ’"to do my
duty in that station of life unto which it shall please
God to call me;” well, your station is a servant
and it is as honourable as a king’s, if you look
at it right; you are to help and serve others in one
way, just as a king is to help others in another.
Now what way are you to help and serve, or to do your
duty, in that station of life unto which it has pleased
God to call you? Did it answer God’s purpose,
and serve Him, when the food was unfit for a child
to eat, and unwholesome for any one?’ Well!
I would not give it up, I was so pig-headed about
my soul; so says I, ’I wish folks would be content
with locusts and wild honey, and leave other folks
in peace to work out their salvation;’ and I
groaned out pretty loud to think of missus’s
soul. I often think since she smiled a bit at
me; but she said, ’Well, Sally, to-morrow, you
shall have time to work out your salvation; but as