hard, and occasionally bitter in his speeches and
ways. Molly now learnt to long after the vanished
blindness in which her father had passed the first
year of his marriage; yet there were no outrageous
infractions of domestic peace. Some people might
say that Mr. Gibson ‘accepted the inevitable;’
he told himself in more homely phrase ‘that
it was no use crying over spilt milk;’ and he,
from principle, avoided all actual dissensions with
his wife, preferring to cut short a discussion by
a sarcasm, or by leaving the room. Moreover,
Mrs Gibson had a very tolerable temper of her own,
and her cat-like nature purred and delighted in smooth
ways, and pleasant quietness. She had no great
facility for understanding sarcasm; it is true it
disturbed her, but as she was not quick at deciphering
any depth of meaning, and felt it to be unpleasant
to think about it, she forgot it as soon as possible.
Yet she saw she was often in some kind of disfavour
with her husband, and it made her uneasy. She
resembled Cynthia in this; she liked to be liked;
and she wanted to regain the esteem which she did
not perceive she had lost for ever. Molly sometimes
took her stepmother’s part in secret; she felt
as if she herself could never have borne her father’s
hard speeches so patiently: they would have cut
her to the heart, and she must either have demanded
an explanation, and probed the sore to the bottom,
or sate down despairing and miserable. Instead
of which Mrs. Gibson, after her husband had left the
room on these occasions, would say in a manner more
bewildered than hurt,—
’I think dear papa seems a little put out to-day;
we must see that he has a dinner that he likes when
he comes home. I have often perceived that everything
depends on making a man comfortable in his own house.’
And thus she went on, groping about to find the means
of reinstating herself in his good graces—really
trying, according to her lights, till Molly was often
compelled to pity her in spite of herself, and although
she saw that her stepmother was the cause of her father’s
increased astringency of disposition. For indeed
he had got into that kind of exaggerated susceptibility
with regard to his wife’s faults, which may
be best typified by the state of bodily irritation
that is produced by the constant recurrence of any
particular noise: those who are brought within
hearing of it, are apt to be always on the watch for
the repetition, if they are once made to notice it,
and are in an irritable state of nerves.
So that poor Molly had not passed a cheerful winter,
independently of any private sorrows that she might
have in her own heart. She did not look well,
either; she was gradually falling into low health,
rather than bad health. Her heart beat more feebly
and slower; the vivifying stimulant of hope—even
unacknowledged hope—was gone out of her
life. It seemed as if there was not, and never
could be in this world, any help for the dumb discordancy