now absent from her consciousness, either, of the
part she was called upon to play in it. Charlotte
had marched straight in, dragging her rich train;
she rose there beautiful and free, with her whole
aspect and action attuned to the firmness of her speech.
Maggie had kept the shawl she had taken out with her,
and, clutching it tight in her nervousness, drew it
round her as if huddling in it for shelter, covering
herself with it for humility. She looked out
as from under an improvised hood—the sole
headgear of some poor woman at somebody’s proud
door; she waited even like the poor woman; she met
her friend’s eyes with recognitions she couldn’t
suppress. She might sound it as she could—“What
question then?”—everything in her,
from head to foot, crowded it upon Charlotte that
she knew. She knew too well—that she
was showing; so that successful vagueness, to save
some scrap of her dignity from the imminence of her
defeat, was already a lost cause, and the one thing
left was if possible, at any cost, even that of stupid
inconsequence, to try to look as if she weren’t
afraid. If she could but appear at all not afraid
she might appear a little not ashamed—that
is not ashamed to be afraid, which was the kind of
shame that could be fastened on her, it being fear
all the while that moved her. Her challenge, at
any rate, her wonder, her terror—the blank,
blurred surface, whatever it was that she presented
became a mixture that ceased to signify; for to the
accumulated advantage by which Charlotte was at present
sustained her next words themselves had little to
add.
“Have you any ground of complaint of me?
Is there any wrong you consider I’ve done you?
I feel at last that I’ve a right to ask you.”
Their eyes had to meet on it, and to meet long; Maggie’s
avoided at least the disgrace of looking away.
“What makes you want to ask it?”
“My natural desire to know. You’ve
done that, for so long, little justice.”
Maggie waited a moment. “For so long?
You mean you’ve thought—?”
“I mean, my dear, that I’ve seen.
I’ve seen, week after week, that you seemed
to be thinking—of something that perplexed
or worried you. Is it anything for which I’m
in any degree responsible?”
Maggie summoned all her powers. “What in
the world should it be?”
“Ah, that’s not for me to imagine, and
I should be very sorry to have to try to say!
I’m aware of no point whatever at which I may
have failed you,” said Charlotte; “nor
of any at which I may have failed any one in whom
I can suppose you sufficiently interested to care.
If I’ve been guilty of some fault I’ve
committed it all unconsciously, and am only anxious
to hear from you honestly about it. But if I’ve
been mistaken as to what I speak of—the
difference, more and more marked, as I’ve thought,
in all your manner to me—why, obviously,
so much the better. No form of correction received
from you could give me greater satisfaction.”