Beulah eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 629 pages of information about Beulah.

Beulah eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 629 pages of information about Beulah.

“Go, Beulah; it is for her own good.”  She saw that he was unrelenting, and complied without opposition.  In the seclusion of her room she indulged in a passionate burst of grief, and, thinking it was best thus vented, Beulah paced up and down the floor, listening now to the convulsive sobs, and now to the rain which pelted the window-panes.  She was two years younger than her companion, yet felt that she was immeasurably stronger.  Often during their acquaintance a painful suspicion had crossed her mind; as often she had banished it, but now it haunted her with a pertinacity which she could not subdue.  While her feet trod the chamber floor, memory trod the chambers of the past, and gathered up every link which could strengthen the chain of evidence.  Gradually dim conjecture became sad conviction, and she was conscious of a degree of pain and sorrow for which she could not readily account.  If Clara loved Dr. Hartwell, why should it grieve her?  Her step grew nervously rapid, and the eyes settled upon the carpet with a fixedness of which she was unconscious.  Suppose he was double her age, if Clara loved him notwithstanding, what business was it of hers?  Besides, no one would dream of the actual disparity in years, for he was a very handsome man, and certainly did not look more than ten years older.  True, Clara was not very intellectual, and he was particularly fond of literary pursuits; but had not she heard him say that it was a singular fact in anthropology that men selected their opposites for wives?  She did not believe her guardian ever thought of Clara save when in her presence.  But how did she know anything about his thoughts and fancies, his likes and dislikes?  He had never even spoken of his marriage—­was it probable that the subject of a second love would have escaped him?  All this passed rapidly in her mind, and when Clara called her to sit down on the couch beside her, she started as from a painful dream.  While her friend talked sadly of the future, Beulah analyzed her features, and came to the conclusion that it would be a very easy matter to love her; the face was so sweet and gentle, the manner so graceful, the tone so musical and winning.  Absorbed in thought, neither noted the lapse of time.  Midnight passed; two o’clock came; and then at three a knock startled the watchers.  Clara sprang to the door; Dr. Hartwell pointed to the sickroom, and said gently: 

“He has ceased to suffer.  He is at rest.”

She looked at him vacantly an instant, and whispered, under her breath:  “He is not dead?”

He did not reply, and, with a frightened expression, she glided into the chamber of death, calling piteously on the sleeper to come back and shield her.  Beulah would have followed, but the doctor detained her.

“Not yet, child.  Not yet.”

As if unconscious of the act, he passed his arm around her shoulders, and drew her close to him.  She looked up in astonishment, but his eyes were fixed on the kneeling figure in the room opposite, and she saw that, just then, he was thinking of anything else than her presence.

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