Beulah eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 629 pages of information about Beulah.

Beulah eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 629 pages of information about Beulah.

“Better that than grope among subterranean caverns, black and icy, as you are forever doing.  You are even getting a weird, unearthly look.  Sometimes, when I come in and find you, book in hand, with that far-off expression in your eyes, I really dislike to speak to you.  There is no more color in your face and hands than in that wall yonder.  You will dig your grave among books, if you don’t take care.  There is such a thing as studying too much.  Your mind is perpetually at work; all day you are thinking, thinking, thinking; and at night, since the warm weather has made me open the door between our rooms, I hear you talking earnestly and rapidly in your sleep.  Last week I came in on tiptoe, and stood a few minutes beside your bed.  The moon shone in through the window, and though you were fast asleep, I saw that you tossed your hands restlessly; while I stood there you spoke aloud, in an incoherent manner, of the ‘Dream Fugue,’ and ’Vision of Sudden Death,’ and now and then you frowned, and sighed heavily, as if you were in pain.  Music is a relaxation to most people, but it seems to put your thoughts on the rack.  You will wear yourself out prematurely if you don’t quit this constant studying.”

She rose to go, and, glancing up at her, Beulah answered musingly: 

“We are very unlike.  The things that I love you shrink from as dull and tiresome.  I live in a different world.  Books are to me what family, and friends, and society are to other people.  It may be that the isolation of my life necessitates this.  Doubtless, you often find me abstracted.  Are you going so soon?  I had hoped we should spend a profitable evening, but it has slipped away, and I have done nothing.  Good-night.”  She rose and gave the customary good-night kiss, and, as Clara retired to her own room, Beulah turned up the wick of her lamp and resumed her book.  The gorgeous mazes of Coleridge no longer imprisoned her fancy; it wandered mid the silence, and desolation, and sand rivulets of the Thebaid desert; through the date groves of the lonely Laura; through the museums of Alexandria.  Over the cool, crystal depths of “Hypatia” her thirsty spirit hung eagerly.  In Philammon’s intellectual nature she found a startling resemblance to her own.  Like him, she had entered a forbidden temple, and learned to question; and the same “insatiable craving to know the mysteries of learning” was impelling her, with irresistible force, out into the world of philosophic inquiry.  Hours fled on unnoted; with nervous haste the leaves were turned.  The town clock struck three.  As she finished the book and laid it on the table she bowed her head upon her hands.  She was bewildered.  Was Kingsley his own Raphael-Aben-Ezra? or did he heartily believe in the Christianity of which he had given so hideous a portraiture?  Her brain whirled, yet there was a great dissatisfaction.  She could not contentedly go back to the Laura with Philammon; “Hypatia” was not sufficiently

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