was chilled; there were cold thoughts in her mind—icy
specters in her heart; and she quickened her pace up
and down the avenue, dusky beneath the ancient gloomy
cedars. One idea haunted her: aside from
revelation, what proof had she that, unlike those
moldering flowers, her spirit should never die?
No trace was to be found of the myriads of souls who
had preceded her. Where were the countless hosts?
Were life and death balanced? was her own soul chiliads
old, forgetting its former existences, save as dim,
undefinable reminiscences, flashed fitfully upon it?
If so, was it a progression? How did she know
that her soul had not entered her body fresh from
the release of the hangman, instead of coming down
on angel wings from its starry home, as she had loved
to think? A passage which she had read many weeks
before flashed upon her mind: “Upon the
dead mother, in peace and utter gloom, are reposing
the dead children. After a time uprises the everlasting
sun; and the mother starts up at the summons of the
heavenly dawn, with a resurrection of her ancient
bloom. And her children? Yes, but they must
wait a while!” This resurrection was springtime,
beckoning dormant beauty from the icy arms of winter;
how long must the children wait for the uprising of
the morning star of eternity? From childhood
these unvoiced queries had perplexed her mind, and,
strengthening with her growth, now cried out peremptorily
for answers. With shuddering dread she strove
to stifle the spirit which, once thoroughly awakened,
threatened to explore every nook and cranny of mystery.
She longed to talk freely with her guardian regarding
many of the suggestions which puzzled her, but shrank
instinctively from broaching such topics. Now,
in her need, the sublime words of Job came to her:
“Oh, that my words were now written! oh, that
they were printed in a book; for I know that my Redeemer
liveth, and that he shall stand at the latter day upon
the earth; and though worms destroy this body, yet
in my flesh shall I see God.” Handel’s
“Messiah” had invested this passage with
resistless grandeur, and, leaving the cold, dreary
garden, she sat down before the melodeon and sang
a portion of the Oratorio. The sublime strains
seemed to bear her worshiping soul up to the presence-chamber
of Deity, and exultingly she repeated the concluding
words:
“For now is Christ risen
from the dead:
The first-fruits of
them that sleep.”
The triumph of faith shone in her kindled eyes, though
glittering drops fell on the ivory keys, and the whole
countenance bespoke a heart resting in the love of
the Father. While her fingers still rolled waves
of melody through the room, Dr. Hartwell entered, with
a parcel in one hand and a magnificent cluster of greenhouse
flowers in the other. He laid the latter before
Beulah, and said:
“I want you to go with me to-night to hear Sontag.
The concert commences at eight o’clock, and
you have no time to spare. Here are some flowers
for your hair; arrange it as you have it now; and here,
also, a pair of white gloves. When you are ready,
come down and make my tea.”