He had never suffered from undue diffidence, and his
success had naturally increased his sense of his own
value, which, however, he did not display in any bumptious
or aggressive manner as one who would force reluctant
acknowledgment of his merits, but quietly and naturally,
seeing that he received full and voluntary recognition
from all sides. He believed in himself, and was
quite right to do so, for everybody else believed
in him too. He spoke with authority, for there
was no one about him who did not hang upon his lips
with respect, and mostly with admiration. He
made assertions and gave his opinion with the assurance
of superior knowledge, but he had a right to do so,
for it always referred only to matters about which
he knew, or was fully persuaded that he knew, more
than most people. Even his wealth did not go
to his head, but acted on him like a moderate amount
of drink upon a man who can stand a great deal.
He enjoyed to the full the comforts and amenities
of life which his large income enabled him to procure,
but he did it for his own pleasure, not for the sake
of what others would think; for his own comfort, and
not for show. He liked to keep good horses and
dogs, an admirably appointed table and cellar, and
a large staff of well-drilled servants. On the
other hand, he avoided anything approaching to display,
was never seen at races, went to no fashionable baths,
gave no grand entertainments, nor had a box at either
theatre or operahouse, belonged to no club, and never
played high. His wife wore perhaps rather more
jewelry and followed the newest Paris fashions a trifle
more closely than was absolutely necessary at Friesenmoor
or even the Uhlenhorst, but as she remained as simple
and unaffected as before, nobody could think any the
worse of her for this small inherited weakness.
Toward his own family Paul had behaved in a most exemplary
manner, affording thereby the strongest proof that
though he had risen he was no upstart. The numerous
members of his family and the men who had married
into it nearly all had to thank him for their advancement
or actual support. Some were employed on his estate,
others he had trained in his particular branch of agriculture,
after which, and with his recommendation, they had
found no difficulty in obtaining brilliant positions
as stewards or lease-holders of estates, and two of
his brothers had appointments on royal domains.
He had, therefore, every right to self-congratulation,
as having fulfilled all the duties of a model man
and citizen far beyond what necessity demanded.
For Wilhelm, Paul still retained the affection and
friendship of his early days, only that, unconsciously
to himself, it had taken on a certain fatherly tone;
although there was a difference of but one year between
them, there was a touch of protecting consideration
and pity about it, such as strong men feel toward
a weaker and less perfectly developed creature.
The first day Paul left his friend to have a thorough
rest, but the next morning early he knocked at his
door and asked if he might come in.