tramping on heel-worn boots and ragged socks.  Beauties and blue mysteries shine upon him and appeal to him, the enigma of beauty smiling the faint strange smile of Leonardo’s Mona Lisa.  He sees a light on the grass like music; and the blossom on the trees against the sky brings him near weeping.  Such things come to him, give themselves to him.  I do not know why he should not in response fling his shabby gear aside and behave like a god; I only know that he does not do so.  His grunt of appreciation is absurd, his speech goes like a crippled thing—­and withal, and partly by virtue of the knapsack and water-bottle, he is conqueror of the valley.  The valley is his for the taking.

There is a duality in life that I cannot express except by such images as this, a duality so that we are at once absurd and full of sublimity, and most absurd when we are most anxious to render the real splendours that pervade us.  This duplicity in life seems to me at times ineradicable, at times like the confusing of something essentially simple, like the duplication when one looks through a doubly refracting medium.  You think in this latter mood that you have only to turn the crystal of Iceland spar about in order to have the whole thing plain.  But you never get it plain.  I have been doing my halting utmost to get down sincerely and simply my vision of life and duty.  I have permitted myself no defensive restraints; I have shamelessly written my starkest, and it is plain to me that a smile that is not mine plays over my most urgent passages.  There is a rebellious rippling of the grotesque under our utmost tragedy and gravity.  One’s martialled phrases grimace as one turns, and wink at the reader.  None the less they signify.  Do you note how in this that I have written, such a word as Believer will begin to wear a capital letter and give itself solemn ridiculous airs?  It does not matter.  It carries its message for all that necessary superficial absurdity.

Thought has made me shameless.  It does not matter at last at all if one is a little harsh or indelicate or ridiculous if that also is in the mystery of things.

Behind everything I perceive the smile that makes all effort and discipline temporary, all the stress and pain of life endurable.  In the last resort I do not care whether I am seated on a throne or drunk or dying in a gutter.  I follow my leading.  In the ultimate I know, though I cannot prove my knowledge in any way whatever, that everything is right and all things mine.

The end.