to open her lips in consolation or extenuation.
She could not trust herself to speak; she would not
venture to renew any solicitation. Forlorn and
humbled as she was, she felt that she was in the greatest
danger; that it was a tremendous bribe that was offered
to her. She had Peggy’s story ringing in
her ears, and thought of Peggy’s insight and
Peggy’s courage. The weak and facile Mr.
Brandon was apt to fall in love, or to fancy that
he did so, with any woman he came in much contact
with, and she was as unsuitable for him, even more
unsuitable, than Peggy was. The discipline of
the last ten months had been too severe for her; it
had crushed her spirit, and injured her health.
She felt alarmed about her cough, and recently had
been thinking more of the blessedness of an early
death than the happiness of an early marriage.
She felt herself to be sickly, low-spirited, wanting
in energy, no fit companion for any colonist, and especially
unfit to be the wife of a man of so little force of
character. His offer appeared to her to be rash
and imprudent. What did he know of her to warrant
him in risking his life’s happiness in such a
way? But yet, though it was foolish in him to
ask her, and though it would have been very wrong
in her to accept of him, she was grateful, so grateful.
How little Walter Brandon could guess how grateful
she felt, when, after their journey was over, he took
her cold, trembling hand, and placed her in the carriage
that was to take them to Dr. Phillips’s.
“You seem afraid of me, Miss Alice,” said
he. “Do not think that I will say another
word on the subject, if it is painful to you.
I know better than to persecute a woman with my addresses,
if I see she does not like them. But do you really
not like them?”
“No, I do not,” said Elsie, abruptly.
“You will see hundreds of other women who would
suit you far better than I could do.”
“If you would only love me, I should be quite
satisfied with your suiting me—but if you
cannot, there need be no more said about it.”
Jane was engaged with her pupils when her sister arrived,
and Mrs. Phillips, who had not been very regular in
her attendance at school lately, stayed in the room
this morning in order to see and remark upon Miss
Melville’s pretty sister. She could see
little beauty in the sad face, with the weary look
about the eyes, and the lines round the mouth, that
had been the result of Elsie’s real experience
of life. The figure, Mrs. Phillips confessed
to her husband and to Mr. Brandon, was rather good,
but wanted development; it was too much of the whipping-post
order. The Misses Phillips said they really thought
Jane the better looking of the two girls, for she had
such a beautiful expression; while Mr. Phillips said
that Elsie had fallen off sadly since he saw her in
Edinburgh at the new year. She had struck him
then as being very pretty, but he did not think so
now, and, of course, in every other respect but personal