they knew me to be. What could they mean by
such conduct—did they wish to cheat me of
the animal? “Well, well,” said I,
“if they did, what matters, they found their
match; yes, yes,” said I, “but I am in
their power, perhaps”—but I instantly
dismissed the apprehension which came into my mind,
with a pooh, nonsense! In a little time, however,
a far more foolish and chimerical idea began to disturb
me—the idea of being flung from my horse;
was I not disgraced for ever as a horseman by being
flung from my horse? Assuredly, I thought; and
the idea of being disgraced as a horseman, operating
on my nervous system, caused me very acute misery.
“After all,” said I to myself, “it
was perhaps the contemptible opinion which the surgeon
must have formed of my equestrian powers, which induced
him to offer to take my horse off my hands; he perhaps
thought I was unable to manage a horse, and therefore
in pity returned in the dead of night to offer to
purchase the animal which had flung me;” and
then the thought that the surgeon had conceived a contemptible
opinion of my equestrian powers, caused me the acutest
misery, and continued tormenting me until some other
idea (I have forgot what it was, but doubtless equally
foolish) took possession of my mind. At length,
brought on by the agitation of my spirits, there came
over me the same feeling of horror that I had experienced
of old when I was a boy, and likewise of late within
the dingle; it was, however, not so violent as it
had been on those occasions, and I struggled manfully
against it, until by degrees it passed away, and then
I fell asleep; and in my sleep I had an ugly dream.
I dreamt that I had died of the injuries I had received
from my fall, and that no sooner had my soul departed
from my body than it entered that of a quadruped,
even my own horse in the stable—in a word,
I was, to all intents and purposes, my own steed;
and as I stood in the stable chewing hay (and I remember
that the hay was exceedingly tough), the door opened,
and the surgeon who had attended me came in.
“My good animal,” said he, “as your
late master has scarcely left enough to pay for the
expenses of his funeral, and nothing to remunerate
me for my trouble, I shall make bold to take possession
of you. If your paces are good, I shall keep
you for my own riding; if not, I shall take you to
Horncastle, your original destination.”
He then bridled and saddled me, and, leading me out,
mounted, and then trotted me up and down before the
house, at the door of which the old man, who now appeared
to be dressed in regular jockey fashion, was standing.
“I like his paces well,” said the surgeon;
“I think I shall take him for my own use.”
“And what am I to have for all the trouble
his master caused me?” said my late entertainer,
on whose countenance I now observed, for the first
time, a diabolical squint. “The consciousness
of having done your duty to a fellow-creature in succouring
him in a time of distress, must be your reward,”