His eyes were dimmed with tears and, looking humbly up to heaven, he wept for the innocence he had lost.

When evening had fallen he left the house, and the first touch of the damp dark air and the noise of the door as it closed behind him made ache again his conscience, lulled by prayer and tears.  Confess!  Confess!  It was not enough to lull the conscience with a tear and a prayer.  He had to kneel before the minister of the Holy Ghost and tell over his hidden sins truly and repentantly.  Before he heard again the footboard of the housedoor trail over the threshold as it opened to let him in, before he saw again the table in the kitchen set for supper he would have knelt and confessed.  It was quite simple.

The ache of conscience ceased and he walked onward swiftly through the dark streets.  There were so many flagstones on the footpath of that street and so many streets in that city and so many cities in the world.  Yet eternity had no end.  He was in mortal sin.  Even once was a mortal sin.  It could happen in an instant.  But how so quickly?  By seeing or by thinking of seeing.  The eyes see the thing, without having wished first to see.  Then in an instant it happens.  But does that part of the body understand or what?  The serpent, the most subtle beast of the field.  It must understand when it desires in one instant and then prolongs its own desire instant after instant, sinfully.  It feels and understands and desires.  What a horrible thing!  Who made it to be like that, a bestial part of the body able to understand bestially and desire bestially?  Was that then he or an inhuman thing moved by a lower soul?  His soul sickened at the thought of a torpid snaky life feeding itself out of the tender marrow of his life and fattening upon the slime of lust.  O why was that so?  O why?

He cowered in the shadow of the thought, abasing himself in the awe of God Who had made all things and all men.  Madness.  Who could think such a thought?  And, cowering in darkness and abject, he prayed mutely to his guardian angel to drive away with his sword the demon that was whispering to his brain.

The whisper ceased and he knew then clearly that his own soul had sinned in thought and word and deed wilfully through his own body.  Confess!  He had to confess every sin.  How could he utter in words to the priest what he had done?  Must, must.  Or how could he explain without dying of shame?  Or how could he have done such things without shame?  A madman!  Confess!  O he would indeed to be free and sinless again!  Perhaps the priest would know.  O dear God!