libraries and instruments of research, the lover of
artistic pleasures his marbles and pictures and other
art treasures, he who delighted in the pleasures of
the table his gorgeous feasts, his dishes prepared
with such delicacy, his choice wines; the miser will
remember his hoard of gold, the robber his ill-gotten
wealth, the angry and revengeful and merciless murderers
their deeds of blood and violence in which they revelled,
the impure and adulterous the unspeakable and filthy
pleasures in which they delighted. They will
remember all this and loathe themselves and their
sins. For how miserable will all those pleasures
seem to the soul condemned to suffer in hellfire for
ages and ages. How they will rage and fume to
think that they have lost the bliss of heaven for the
dross of earth, for a few pieces of metal, for vain
honours, for bodily comforts, for a tingling of the
nerves. They will repent indeed: and this
is the second sting of the worm of conscience, a late
and fruitless sorrow for sins committed. Divine
justice insists that the understanding of those miserable
wretches be fixed continually on the sins of which
they were guilty, and moreover, as saint Augustine
points out, God will impart to them His own knowledge
of sin, so that sin will appear to them in all its
hideous malice as it appears to the eyes of God Himself.
They will behold their sins in all their foulness and
repent but it will be too late and then they will bewail
the good occasions which they neglected. This
is the last and deepest and most cruel sting of the
worm of conscience. The conscience will say:
You had time and opportunity to repent and would not.
You were brought up religiously by your parents.
You had the sacraments and grace and indulgences of
the church to aid you. You had the minister of
God to preach to you, to call you back when you had
strayed, to forgive you your sins, no matter how many,
how abominable, if only you had confessed and repented.
No. You would not. You flouted the ministers
of holy religion, you turned your back on the confessional,
you wallowed deeper and deeper in the mire of sin.
God appealed to you, threatened you, entreated you
to return to Him. O, what shame, what misery!
The Ruler of the universe entreated you, a creature
of clay, to love Him Who made you and to keep His
law. No. You would not. And now, though
you were to flood all hell with your tears if you could
still weep, all that sea of repentance would not gain
for you what a single tear of true repentance shed
during your mortal life would have gained for you.
You implore now a moment of earthly life wherein to
repent: In vain. That time is gone:
gone for ever.
—Such is the threefold sting of conscience, the viper which gnaws the very heart’s core of the wretches in hell, so that filled with hellish fury they curse themselves for their folly and curse the evil companions who have brought them to such ruin and curse the devils who tempted them in life and now mock them in eternity and even revile and curse the Supreme Being Whose goodness and patience they scorned and slighted but Whose justice and power they cannot evade.