but when we truly repent and go back, and kneel, and pray to be forgiven, Christ Himself unbars the door and leads us in; and our Father, loving those whom He created, pardons all; and only requires that we sin no more.  God does not follow us; we must humbly go back all the distance we have put between us by our wickedness; but the heavens will fall before He fails to keep His promise to forgive, when we do genuinely repent of our wrongdoing.”

“It is easy for the good to believe that.  You are innocent of any crime, and you are punished for other people’s sins, not for your own; so you can’t understand how I dread the thought of God, because I know the blackness of my heart, when, to get my revenge, I sold my soul to Satan.  Oh! the horror of feeling that I can’t undo the bargain; that pay-day has come!  I had the vengeance, I snatched out of God’s hands, and for a while I gloated over it; but now the awful price!  My little one in heaven with the angels; knowing that his mother is a devil—­eternally.”

Her head had fallen upon her knees, and in the frenzy of despair she rocked to and fro.

“Don’t you remember that the most sinful woman Christ met on earth, was the one of all others that He first revealed Himself to, when He came out of the grave?  Because she was so nearly lost, and He had forgiven so much, in order to save her, her purified heart was doubly dear, and he honored her more than the disciples, who had escaped the depth of her wickedness.  Try to find comfort in the belief, that if sincere remorse and contrition redeemed the soul of Mary Magdalen, the same Savior who pitied and pardoned her will not deny your prayer.”

“God believed her, because she proved her repentance by leading a new, purer life.  But I have no chance left to prove mine.  If she had been cut off in the midst of her sins, as I am, she would have been obliged to pay in her ruined soul to the Satan she had served so long.  When I am called to the settlement, it seems an insult and a mockery to ask God, whom I have defied, to save me.  If I could only have a little time to show my penitence.”

“Perhaps you may be spared; but if not, God sees your contrition just as fully now as if you lived fifty years to show it in good works.  He sees you are sincerely remorseful, and would be a true Christian, if He allowed you an opportunity.  That is the blessedness of our religion, that when Christ gives us a new heart, purified by repentance and faith in Him, He says it makes clean hands, in His sight, no matter how black they might have been.  One of the thieves was already on the cross, in the agonies of death, with his sins fresh on his soul, and no possible chance of atoning for his past, by future dedication of his life to good; but Christ saw his heart was genuinely repentant, and though the man did not escape crucifixion by humanity, his pardoned soul met Jesus that same day in Paradise.  It is not acceptance of our good deeds, though they are required, it is forgiveness of our sins, that makes Christ so precious.  Pray from the very bottom of your heart, to God, and try to take hold of the promise to the truly penitent; and trust—­trust Him.”