come in did take an oath to declare the truth to what
they should ask me, which is a great power; I doubt
more than the Act do, or as some say can, give them,
to force a man to swear against himself; and so they
fell to enquire about the business of prize-goods,
wherein I did answer them as well as I could, answer
them in everything the just truth, keeping myself
to that. I do perceive at last, that, that they
did lay most like a fault to me was, that I did buy
goods upon my Lord Sandwich’s declaring that
it was with the King’s allowance, and my believing
it, without seeing the King’s allowance, which
is a thing I will own, and doubt not to justify myself
in. That that vexed me most was, their having
some watermen by, to witness my saying that they were
rogues that they had betrayed my goods, which was
upon some discontent with one of the watermen that
I employed at Greenwich, who I did think did discover
the goods sent from Rochester to the Custom-House officer;
but this can do me no great harm. They were
inquisitive into the minutest particulars, and the
evening great information; but I think that they can
do me no hurt, at the worst, more than to make me
refund, if it must be known, what profit I did make
of my agreement with Captain Cocke; and yet, though
this be all, I do find so poor a spirit within me,
that it makes me almost out of my wits, and puts me
to so much pain, that I cannot think of anything,
nor do anything but vex and fret, and imagine myself
undone, so that I am ashamed of myself to myself,
and do fear what would become of me if any real affliction
should come upon me. After they had done with
me, they called in Captain Cocke, with whom they were
shorter; and I do fear he may answer foolishly, for
he did speak to me foolishly before he went in; but
I hope to preserve myself, and let him shift for himself
as well as he can. So I away, walked to my flageolet
maker in the Strand, and there staid for Captain Cocke,
who took me up and carried me home, and there coming
home and finding dinner done, and Mr. Cooke, who come
for my Lady Sandwich’s plate, which I must part
with, and so endanger the losing of my money, which
I lent upon my thoughts of securing myself by that
plate. But it is no great sum—but
L60: and if it must be lost, better that, than
a greater sum. I away back again, to find a dinner
anywhere else, and so I, first, to the Ship Tavern,
thereby to get a sight of the pretty mistress of the
house, with whom I am not yet acquainted at all, and
I do always find her scolding, and do believe she
is an ill-natured devil, that I have no great desire
to speak to her. Here I drank, and away by coach
to the Strand, there to find out Mr. Moore, and did
find him at the Bell Inn, and there acquainted him
with what passed between me and the Commissioners
to-day about the prize goods, in order to the considering
what to do about my Lord Sandwich, and did conclude
to own the thing to them as done by the King’s
allowance, and since confirmed. Thence to other