SOPHISTICATION

It was early evening of a day in, the late fall and the Winesburg County Fair had brought crowds of country people into town.  The day had been clear and the night came on warm and pleasant.  On the Trunion Pike, where the road after it left town stretched away between berry fields now covered with dry brown leaves, the dust from passing wagons arose in clouds.  Children, curled into little balls, slept on the straw scattered on wagon beds.  Their hair was full of dust and their fingers black and sticky.  The dust rolled away over the fields and the departing sun set it ablaze with colors.

In the main street of Winesburg crowds filled the stores and the sidewalks.  Night came on, horses whinnied, the clerks in the stores ran madly about, children became lost and cried lustily, an American town worked terribly at the task of amusing itself.

Pushing his way through the crowds in Main Street, young George Willard concealed himself in the stairway leading to Doctor Reefy’s office and looked at the people.  With feverish eyes he watched the faces drifting past under the store lights.  Thoughts kept coming into his head and he did not want to think.  He stamped impatiently on the wooden steps and looked sharply about.  “Well, is she going to stay with him all day?  Have I done all this waiting for nothing?” he muttered.

George Willard, the Ohio village boy, was fast growing into manhood and new thoughts had been coming into his mind.  All that day, amid the jam of people at the Fair, he had gone about feeling lonely.  He was about to leave Winesburg to go away to some city where he hoped to get work on a city newspaper and he felt grown up.  The mood that had taken possession of him was a thing known to men and unknown to boys.  He felt old and a little tired.  Memories awoke in him.  To his mind his new sense of maturity set him apart, made of him a half-tragic figure.  He wanted someone to understand the feeling that had taken possession of him after his mother’s death.

There is a time in the life of every boy when he for the first time takes the backward view of life.  Perhaps that is the moment when he crosses the line into manhood.  The boy is walking through the street of his town.  He is thinking of the future and of the figure he will cut in the world.  Ambitions and regrets awake within him.  Suddenly something happens; he stops under a tree and waits as for a voice calling his name.  Ghosts of old things creep into his consciousness; the voices outside of himself whisper a message concerning the limitations of life.  From being quite sure of himself and his future he becomes not at all sure.  If he be an imaginative boy a door is torn open and for the first time he looks out upon the world, seeing, as though they marched in procession before him, the countless figures of men who before his time have come out of nothingness into the world, lived their lives