Brigitte was near us, and her eyes never left us.  I can hardly describe what I felt; it was both pleasure and pain.  I clearly saw that she was jealous; but instead of being moved by it I did all I could to increase her suffering.

On the return I expected to hear her reproaches; she made none, but remained silent for three days.  When I came to see her she would greet me kindly; then we would sit down facing each other, both of us preoccupied, hardly exchanging a word.  The third day she spoke, overwhelmed me with bitter reproaches, told me that my conduct was unreasonable, that she could not account for it except on the supposition that I had ceased to love her; but she could not endure this life and would resort to anything rather than submit to my caprices and coldness.  Her eyes were full of tears, and I was about to ask her pardon when some words escaped her that were so bitter that my pride revolted.  I replied in the same tone, and our quarrel became violent.

I told her that it was absurd to suppose that I could not inspire enough confidence in my mistress to escape the necessity of explaining my every action; that Madame Daniel was only a pretext; that she very well knew I did not think of that woman seriously; that her pretended jealousy was nothing but the expression of her desire for despotic power, and that, moreover, if she had tired of this life, it was easy enough to put an end to it.

“Very well,” she replied; “it is true that I do not recognize you as the same man I first knew; you doubtless performed a little comedy to persuade me that you loved me; you are tired of your role and can think of nothing but abuse.  You suspect me of deceiving you upon the first word, and I am under no obligation to submit to your insults.  You are no longer the man I loved.”

“I know what your sufferings are,” I replied.  “I can not make a step without exciting your alarm.  Soon I shall not be permitted to address a word to any one but you.  You pretend that you have been abused in order that you may be justified in offering insult; you accuse me of tyranny in order that I may become your slave.  Since I trouble your repose, I leave you in peace; you will never see me again.”

We parted in anger, and I passed an entire day without seeing her.  The next night, toward midnight, I was seized by a feeling of melancholy that I could not resist.  I shed a torrent of tears; I overwhelmed myself with reproaches that I richly deserved.  I told myself that I was nothing but a fool, and a cowardly fool at that, to make the noblest, the best of creatures, suffer in this way.  I ran to her to throw myself at her feet.

Entering the garden, I saw that her room was lighted and a flash of suspicion crossed my mind.  “She does not expect me at this hour,” I said to myself; “who knows what she may be doing.  I left her in tears yesterday; I may find her ready to sing to-day and caring no more for me than if I never existed.  I must enter gently, in order to surprise her.”