“’O unhappy one! beware of men; while they walk along the same path with you, you will see a vast plain strewn with garlands where a happy throng of dancers trip the gladsome farandole standing in a circle, each a link in an endless chain.  It is but a mirage; those who look down know that they are dancing on a silken thread stretched over an abyss that swallows up all who fall and shows not even a ripple on its surface.  What foot is sure?  Nature herself seems to deny you her divine consolation; trees and flowers are yours no more; you have broken your mother’s laws, you are no longer one of her foster children; the birds of the field become silent when you appear.

“’You are alone!  Beware of God!  You are face to face with Him, standing like a cold statue upon the pedestal of will.  The rain from heaven no longer refreshes you, it undermines and weakens you.  The passing wind no longer gives you the kiss of life, its benediction on all that lives and breathes; it buffets you and makes you stagger.  Every woman who kisses you takes from you a spark of life and gives you none in return; you exhaust yourself on phantoms; wherever falls a drop of your sweat there springs up one of those sinister weeds that grow in graveyards.  Die!  You are the enemy of all who love; blot yourself from the face of the earth, do not wait for old age; do not leave a child behind you, do not perpetuate a drop of your corrupted blood; vanish as does the smoke, do not deprive a single blade of living grass of a ray of sunlight.’”

When I had spoken these words I fell back in my chair, and a flood of tears streamed from my eyes.

“Ah!  Desgenais,” I cried, sobbing, “this is not what you told me.  Did you not know it?  And if you did, why did you not tell me of it?”

But Desgenais sat still with folded hands; he was as pale as a shroud, and a tear trickled slowly down his cheek.

A moment of silence ensued.  The clock struck; I suddenly remembered that it was on this hour and this day one year ago that my mistress deceived me.

“Do you hear that clock?” I cried, “do you hear it?  I do not know what it means at this moment, but it is a terrible hour, and one that will count in my life.”

I was beside myself, and scarcely knew what I was saying.  But at that instant a servant rushed into the room; he took my hand and led me aside, whispering in my ear: 

“Sir, I have come to inform you that your father is dying; he has just been seized with an attack of apoplexy and the physicians despair of his life.”

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