you are perhaps the only true happiness known to man!
For eight days we spent our time making purchases
and preparing for our departure; then a young man presented
himself at our apartments: he brought letters
to Brigitte. After their interview I found her
sad and distraught; but I could not guess the cause
unless the letters were from N------, that village
where I had confessed my love and where Brigitte’s
only relatives lived. Nevertheless, our preparations
progressed rapidly and I became impatient to get away;
at the same time I was so happy that I could hardly
rest. When I arose in the morning and the sun
was shining through our windows, I experienced such
transports of joy that I was almost intoxicated with
happiness. So anxious was I to prove the sincerity
of my love for Brigitte that I hardly dared kiss the
hem of her skirt. Her lightest words made me
tremble as if her voice were strange to me; I alternated
between tears and laughter, and I never spoke of the
past except with horror and disgust. Our room
was full of personal effects scattered about in disorder—albums,
pictures, books, and the dear map we loved so much.
We went to and fro about the little apartment; at
brief intervals I would stop and kneel before Brigitte
who would call me an idler, saying that she had to
do all the work, and that I was good for nothing; and
all sorts of projects flitted through our minds.
Sicily was far away, but the winters are so delightful
there! Genoa is very pretty with its painted
houses, its green gardens, and the Apennines in the
background! But what noise! What crowds!
Among every three men on the street, one is a monk
and another a soldier. Florence is sad, it is
the Middle Ages living in the midst of modern life.
How can any one endure those grilled windows and that
horrible brown color with which all the houses are
tinted?
What could we do at Rome? We were not travelling
in order to forget ourselves, much less for the sake
of instruction. To the Rhine? But the season
was over, and although we did not care for the world
of fashion, still it is sad to visit its haunts when
it has fled. But Spain? Too many restrictions
there; one travels like an army on the march, and may
expect everything except repose. Switzerland?
Too many people go there, and most of them are deceived
as to the nature of its attractions; but in that land
are unfolded the three most beautiful colors on God’s
earth: the azure of the sky, the verdure of the
plains, and the whiteness of the snows on the summits
of glaciers.
“Let us go, let us go!” cried Brigitte,
“let us fly away like two birds. Let us
pretend, my dear Octave, that we met each other only
yesterday. You met me at a ball, I pleased you
and I love you; you tell me that some leagues distant,
in a certain little town, you loved a certain Madame
Pierson; what passed between you and her I do not know.
You will not tell me the story of your love for another!
And I will whisper to you that not long since I loved
a terrible fellow who made me very unhappy; you will
reprove me and close my mouth, and we will agree never
to speak of such things.”