Red Lily, the — Complete eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 288 pages of information about Red Lily, the — Complete.

Red Lily, the — Complete eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 288 pages of information about Red Lily, the — Complete.

“Nothing.  I am thinking—­I am thinking that we are separated all through the summer; that in winter you live with your parents and your friends half the time; and that, if we are to see so little of each other, it is better not to see each other at all.”

He lighted the candelabra.  His frank, hard face was illuminated.  He looked at her with a confidence that came less from the conceit common to all lovers than from his natural lack of dignity.  He believed in her through force of education and simplicity of intelligence.

“Therese, I love you, and you love me, I know.  Why do you torment me?  Sometimes you are painfully harsh.”

She shook her little head brusquely.

“What will you have?  I am harsh and obstinate.  It is in the blood.  I take it from my father.  You know Joinville; you have seen the castle, the ceilings, the tapestries, the gardens, the park, the hunting-grounds, you have said that none better were in France; but you have not seen my father’s workshop—­a white wooden table and a mahogany bureau.  Everything about me has its origin there.  On that table my father made figures for forty years; at first in a little room, then in the apartment where I was born.  We were not very wealthy then.  I am a parvenu’s daughter, or a conqueror’s daughter, it’s all the same.  We are people of material interests.  My father wanted to earn money, to possess what he could buy—­that is, everything.  I wish to earn and keep—­what?  I do not know—­the happiness that I have—­or that I have not.  I have my own way of being exacting.  I long for dreams and illusions.  Oh, I know very well that all this is not worth the trouble that a woman takes in giving herself to a man; but it is a trouble that is worth something, because my trouble is myself, my life.  I like to enjoy what I like, or think what I like.  I do not wish to lose.  I am like papa:  I demand what is due to me.  And then—­”

She lowered her voice: 

“And then, I have—­impulses!  Now, my dear, I bore you.  What will you have?  You shouldn’t have loved me.”

This language, to which she had accustomed him, often spoiled his pleasure.  But it did not alarm him.  He was sensitive to all that she did, but not at all to what she said; and he attached no importance to a woman’s words.  Talking little himself, he could not imagine that often words are the same as actions.

Although he loved her, or, rather, because he loved her with strength and confidence, he thought it his duty to resist her whims, which he judged absurd.  Whenever he played the master, he succeeded with her; and, naively, he always ended by playing it.

“You know very well, Therese, that I wish to do nothing except to be agreeable to you.  Don’t be capricious with me.”

“And why should I not be capricious?  If I gave myself to you, it was not because I was logical, nor because I thought I must.  It was because I was capricious.”

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